What's actually wild is that when I have an awkward moment as an autistic person that makes neurotypicals bullies me, the question I always ask myself is:

Did it seem like I fucked up specifically because I'm autistic and misunderstood or did I actually fuck up and their bullying was justified?

I never can tell, and this is why my internalized ableism was always the hardest form of internalized bigotry for me to overcome. I feel like anti-autistic sentiment is so socially acceptable as long as you don't explicitly make it about autism, i.e. you can get upset with someone for displaying supposed "autistic tendencies," but you can't call them a slur or directly poke fun at the fact that they're autistic for doing so. This is actually true for a lot of forms of bigotry, as I used to work a job where I was the only black person there, and I got harassed in ways that I found very hard to disconnect from how my coworkers may have been perceiving me on the basis of my race. Looking back at these microaggressions, I genuinely believe that if I were white, things would've gone a lot better there, but that's only a hypothetical, so who knows?

I also have this very powerful tendency to feel like my emotions aren't valid in the context of people getting upset with me, especially if it's a neurotypical person. If a neurotypical person shouts at me for something and it makes me sad, then my gut instinct tells me "It's you. You need to stop being sad. The way they treated you is fine. You just need to learn to stop being sad, which is an irrational response on your part."