Canada

Assuming he was brain dead, at least he probably didn't consciously experience that pain, in spite of whatever involuntary bodily spasms he might've made on life support. The man you knew died painlessly at least, and I hope that brings you some peace.

Based on your description, I don't think your father would have qualified for MAID in its current form - recipients must be able to provide informed consent immediately before receiving medical assistance in dying, with very narrow exceptions.

In Canada doctors are obligated to give you the options in cases of terminal illness: Palliative in hospital or home, or MAID.

My father had .. a lot of issues. From diabetes to hepatic encephalitis to cancer. But, because catholic he wouldn't even consider maid.

So, we had him in their home, in the living room, on a hospital bed.

I spent 7 months at my parents home taking care of anything I could.

From the diagnosis to the point he ... it was horrible. For everyone.

7 months watching him die.

The pain, the humiliating failures of his body, the desperation, the anger, it all was because god.

And years later, I still get flashes, I need to scream to the sky, I need to cry. I couldn't even look at a picture of him.

It fucked me up.

It haunts me.

Damn you, onion cutting ninjas!

If you're in America and not already 69 I'm not optimistic of your chances of making 70.

Yeah that’s pretty much my plan too.

I’m not going to spend my end of days being ill, in pain, or destitute due to the American healthcare system. No thanks!

Well maybe do heroin once, come down then piece out

Easy to say that till the time comes. Don't spread negativity its contagious.

Also just because your American doesn't mean your life and how you choose to live are simply thrown away like trash some things will be out of your control but you can still focus on what you can control to improve. Don't let negativity consume you all I'm saying.