hot? yeah i guess it was a little toasty overnight now i've had to crack out my second blanket, its the middle of winter! This is southern hemisphere erasure!
im doing okay, someone in the vague 'activist scene' in my city is kinda making my life hell atm, theyre not well, but neither am i. So i'm fading out of existence. For how much people all talk about 'community', i'm yet to have many people check in with me.
Theyre going to be living in a worldwithoutlawyers.jpg now i'm gone. no one else is going to tell them to reexamine their preconceptions, theres going to be unexamined racist shit going down, i tell you what.
i kept being told 'well remember what you were like when you were young!', and i kept thinking, yeah damn, they should all be doing drugs instead of crowing themselves godking of the 'movement'.
this has all really destroyed my confidence i'm actually too anxious to even check replies here atm, for a while i couldnt even comment because i felt like everyone was so mad at me lol.
The 'scene' is good for them, but has been a disaster for my mental health. so i'm dropping everything so i can rekindle my energy and re engage myself with my union organising.
i dunno this feels like too much, maybe im too much. I'm getting echoes of an ex telling me 'i'm not availible to do emotional labour for you'. haha hehe hoho yes
if people are treating you like shit, you should leave, its not easy, but its for the best
this is sweet i have memories like this
I keep some hairties on me all the time (on my keys, in my wallet), gettining to help out someone, is a good feeling in return. I think i gave one to some random retail staff who were getting chewed out by a manager in front of me once