dogerwaul

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[–] dogerwaul@hexbear.net 0 points 3 weeks ago (1 children)

paranoia is warranted when the country you live in is becoming increasingly hostile and dangerous to your existence. the kind of leftist organizing we need doesn't exist, you're right. but that doesn't matter. we can make it exist. leftist anger is growing and that is helping attract disillusioned democrats who are actually more left than their elected officials. we can form something new and real and legitimate. don't know how but.. it feels like it'll happen sooner rather than later. tensions have skyrocketed and voices are collecting.

[–] dogerwaul@hexbear.net 32 points 1 month ago

publications love doing that shit lol. the whole concept of a carbon footprint was invented to make individual people feel personally responsible for climate change even though corporations pollute 100x more.

[–] dogerwaul@hexbear.net 9 points 1 month ago

Severance is an incredible show. One of the best ever made tbh and it's only on its second season.

[–] dogerwaul@hexbear.net 77 points 1 month ago (12 children)

i'm interested in seeing how people who voted for him are going to rationalize their support when the tariffs are pushed to consumers to cover. goods and services are going to increase in price and instead of it being due to a series of complicated events that the president is of course involved in it'll be directly Trump's fault. explain that away, please.

 

a sampling of my favorite singles this month in no particular order. what were some of your most played songs of January? :D

[–] dogerwaul@hexbear.net 94 points 2 months ago (6 children)

she had a two or three week period of support and then she completely ruined it by promising to capitulate to the right and reaffirmed America's prepardness for war. i saw leftists of all types say they were willing to vote for her as a means to reject fascism if she listened to their concerns. there were tons of jokes about "letting liberals have this one" and the discomfort of having to align with liberals on something. it wasn't every leftist, of course, but.. i'll speak as myself i wasn't expecting Biden to drop out so him actually fucking off gave me the smallest twinkle of hope lol. then it was obliterated. she campaigned with Liz Cheney. Liz. Cheney. great job. very smart of you.

[–] dogerwaul@hexbear.net 2 points 2 months ago

i appreciate you reading my post. thanks.

 

i hate to add to the posts of mentally unwell users venting their thoughts and detailing their experiences, but i have nowhere else to turn and nobody in my life to talk in depth with. therapists are impossible to secure and the last one told me i’d benefit from an existential specialist but there isn’t one anywhere near me.

every day i wake up i wish i hadn’t. passive suicidal ideation is at an all-time high for me it seems, but i’ve used that phrasing before and they can’t all be the ultimate. however, it feels that strong to me. it’s a powerfully soul crushing sensation. i don’t want to be alive anymore. i want to die. i simply can’t cause it myself, unfortunately.

the things others often say to suicidal people don’t feel significant or relevant enough to keep me here. “think of your loved ones,” “think of the pain you’ll cause,” “think of those who will miss you,” “think of your pets,” etc. well.. i’ll be dead. what the fuck do i care? they’ll all die eventually too and leave someone sad who loved them. death is inescapable and unavoidable and is always devastating to someone. asking me to live in misery because it’ll be too hard to mourn my loss sounds like a lot of not-my-problem.

i hope i get hit by a car every time i walk or drive on the road. sometimes i imagine myself swerving into a wall or crashing into a concrete barrier. occasionally, i’ll complete the fantasy with a swift jerk to the stirring wheel almost like a practice session.

i want this to be over. i would’ve never chosen life if the choice was offered and i’m in a 13 year long relationship with a guy i refer to as my other half. i wouldn’t be anything without him and i’d still choose to remain non-living in the void.

i don’t know what the purpose of this post is. it’s not like i’ve said what makes me depressed. honestly, it feels too personal to discuss and there’s no solution, so.. why bother.

anyway, if you’re feeling similarly you aren’t alone and i’m sorry you’re struggling.

[–] dogerwaul@hexbear.net -4 points 2 months ago* (last edited 2 months ago)

depends on what you mean. the principles which guide my morals only change when presented with significant reason to. i identify as a leftist in the political sense because it is where my beliefs closely align. communism doesn’t own the ideas central to my beliefs, and as i learn more about what it means to be a communist and how that group defines itself, i may find myself at odds with their overall interpretation and implementation of leftism.

i used to call myself a communist and now i don’t. i wouldn’t say ive become “less” of anything that i previously was when i wore the communist label. one reason i stopped is i simply don’t feel it appropriate to refer to myself as a commie because i don’t put much weight behind what Marx or Engels said in the 1800s as a person living in 2025 and i noticed a lot of modern communists live and breathe for their philosophical analysis.

but im still the leftist i was prior. if anything i have gotten further left since 2016 lol.

[–] dogerwaul@hexbear.net 5 points 2 months ago

it’s already been mentioned in a comment but recycling isn’t nearly as helpful as it was intended to be and often acts like a bandage on a festering wound. we just move non-recyclable plastic from one area to another. there’s no real regulation over the labels used to indicate how to recycle something, so your guidelines are often wrong. idk it just seems like we pushed for Americans to recycle and then did absolutely no follow-up on how that was going and whether it was working or not.

[–] dogerwaul@hexbear.net 26 points 2 months ago

i’m convinced the majority of Americans simply don’t care but feel compelled to answer considering cultural morals, so they choose to express some level of disapproval. not caring here is a symptom of political apathy which is itself a symptom of a exhaustion from living under an oppressive and failed ideology. they don’t care that he died, whatever. worse things to focus on. but they “know that’s wrong” and respond to these questions in the perceived expected way.

so in my mind, the people who don’t care and the people who sympathize with the shooter likely make up more than anyone who criticizes them. i haven’t met a single person who hasn’t had a terrible experience with health insurance. we have all suffered in the health care industry. brian thompson was a social murderer and a fucking parasite.

[–] dogerwaul@hexbear.net 3 points 2 months ago (2 children)

why the hell would anyone willingly live in Florida

[–] dogerwaul@hexbear.net 11 points 2 months ago

yup! one of the things i was thinking of when i left my comment. Americans are not told of their options because an educated population is dangerous. those in power would rather keep us exhausted and fighting with each other.

[–] dogerwaul@hexbear.net 2 points 2 months ago

the constitution doesn’t matter anymore. i mean, honestly, i think the document is irrelevant and should be disregarded in favor of genuine progress, but members of the oligarchy are ignoring these laws to supplement their own terrible version of reality. they are making their own precedents at the expense of the American people. Trump has shown the country that if someone is powerful enough they can do whatever the fuck they want with the influence they’ve accrued.

 

i couldn't find a community geared towards venting or posting about depression, so i'm coming here to empty my head. sorry in advance if this doesn't fit the comm well. if you're sensitive to depression i'd avoid my post tbh.

it took me two months to find a job since my last one ended in October. my bills became unmanageable during that time and my phone was shut off. yesterday, on my first day of work, my car was repossessed after i got home. i live with my partner and his mother and they fought about me the other day. i came home early today from work and got into a yelling match with my partner over something stupid. we have been together for 13 years. we know there will be bad and good times, but lately it's been nothing but bad, and i am the cause of a good percentage of it.

i have several mental illnesses that make it difficult for me to maintain support for myself. i am medicated and have been in and out of therapy. i've even been hospitalized for suicidal ideation. i am trying, i really am. i don't know how to balance the love i feel for my partner and "being responsible" financially. we are supposed to focus on expenses and bills first, but i cannot simply exist to work. that isn't life, that isn't living, i'd rather be dead. i will only get one life to live and i am spending it concerned about money and successfully navigating a capitalist hellhole. yes, sometimes i buy my boyfriend and i shit we don't need, but it's because we get to experience each other genuinely when we come together and do or use whatever i bought for us. i am creating memories, i am creating happiness.. but yes, it is at the expense of money and "good" decision making. poor people are allowed to enjoy life too.

but.. i don't know if my boyfriend sees it that way. he's told me that he cares more about being financially stable and secure, but the smile on his face when i get him something he wanted or i pick up some weed for us to relax together and smoke tells me that he needs a release too. he feels pressured to conform to the world around him, but he is also extremely disgusted by our world in much the same way i am.

idk. i have felt like a leech and a failure my whole life, and now i have lost my phone and my car, and have no money until my first check. i spent what i had on gas for a car that was taken from me lol. now i'm sitting here broke and without much of anything, and my boyfriend and his mother seem to think poor of me as of late.

i'm tried. i really am exhausted. if i don't wake up tomorrow the world would be doing me a favor. i have begged to die in my sleep before only to unfortunately wake up and be forced to exist yet again. maybe tonight will be different.

 

update: i have been sent $10 and $30 from two users as of 01/04/25. thank you both so much!

hello everyone. on Oct 1st i lost my job. the job itself was toxic but it was also my only source of income. it took a while but i landed a new position that begins on Monday. however, i am incredibly behind on bills and my phone has been shut off. my car is scheduled to be repossessed as well. i have been doing DoorDash as a means to support myself but with my phone being disabled i have no way to work. i am unsure when my first paycheck will be and i am running out of food for myself and my pets, and i am out of gas for my car. things are very difficult currently. the only family i have is my mother and we don’t live in the same state. nobody is able to help me, so i am coming here to try and appeal to anyone who is able to provide support.

full disclosure: i created a request on here a couple days ago but it didn’t result in any assistance, so i am trying once more as a last resort. additionally, i need roughly $600 to pull me out of this hole. i would never ask for that from complete strangers, so please, even if you can only provide a few dollars anything will help. truly.

venmo and cash app - dgrwl

if you’d like to help but have a different payment app then send me a message. i’d be willing to download it.

thank you for reading. thank you to anyone who bumps or otherwise helps my thread. and thank you so much if you are able to give and do so.

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submitted 2 months ago* (last edited 2 months ago) by dogerwaul@hexbear.net to c/boardgames@lemmygrad.ml
 

how many have you played this yet? it’s so good! really enjoying the interactions with opponents.

 

we had an electronic toy bucket with a clown nose that shot its own balls out of its mouth and the game was you’d gather them up from around the room and shove them back in its stupid bucket head and it would suck its balls up and throw ‘em back out and you’d repeat that and pretend it was fun for more than five minutes.

what do you think made us millennials the way we are? tbh i think zoomers are cool. they’re doing alright. they’re like my younger sibling. we were raised by the same bullshit.

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