The way I think and feel emotions is strange to me... I feel like there’s this veil over all my perception that I can just barely catch a sense is there.

For me its most noticeable with pain (probably because a lot of people don't even consider it an emotion, but just a purely physical phenomenon). Like, not that long ago I stubbed my toe, yelped because of it, then was convinced I didn't really stub my toe because there was no pain as far as I could tell. The next morning, it felt stiff, so I think I stubbed it pretty hard.

This morning, I started to wonder if a similar disconnect between my subconscious and conscious experience of pain has actually been the cause an unsettling feeling the last couple days (I was just chalking it up to burnout at work...). I wish my brain wouldn't keep secrets like that from me when there's the possibility that I could do something about it >.>

Funnily, one of my earliest memories (assuming it real) was being at my friend's house and his dad asking us what superpower we'd want and I think I said something like "no pain" (but meant invincibility I think), and he pointed out how that means you could be damaging your body without realizing it.