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maybe it's too late to be different
why do you say that?
This ended up being a lot tbh
dysphoria, suicide
It feels like my habits are etched in stone. I just keep recreating the same situation where I have needs and I can't speak on them, I'm scared to ask questions, I don't know people as well so I keep to myself. I feel like any amount of space I take up is too much for people.Sometimes I feel like Girl Me is growing, deep inside, and Boy Me is rotting and watching his flesh turn rancid. Girl Me wants to claw her way out, and Boy Me is desperate to retreat back in. Part of me wants to begin and part of me wants to end.
I feel like I'm trapped on rails, and heading straight toward a cliff. And nobody sees that I'm trapped. In fact, they're cheering as the traincar finally careens off the edge. And for a second, that feels like attention. That feels like love. Something that I did got someone to feel, if just for a moment.
I am constantly fighting my own thoughts and everyone just thinks I'm quiet and aloof when I'm actually fucking trapped in my head. If I say words out loud, congrats, because those words had to conquer an entire 128 team bracket in order for me to actually say them.
I don't know if I have social instincts. Like, I don't know. Maybe people perceive me, evolutionarily, as a stump or small hill or something because I'm too introverted or neurodivergent or gay or something. Idk.
I don't know if this is you, but any amount of time being the same sucks and I do not want that for whatever time I have left.
I thought that people wanted me to be the same. Nobody told me I was supposed to be actively changing and doing new stuff. I thought that people's approval was a sign that "you're doing great, keep chugging along!"
So I chugged along. I had my system and it worked until I had a complete breakdown.
And now I'm in the post-. I can't unthink the thoughts I've had. Those happened. Now I have to understand why, and how to move on. There's no "wow I was scrolling for 8 hours today and I got a smoothie" until who I am makes more sense.
Unfortunately, you really have to take this with a grain of salt. Peer approval is not a sign you definitely need to keep chugging on the same path.
I've had some thoughts that can't be unthought lately too. Posting them helped me understand why, and how to move forward. I'm sure you'll figure it out though. But bouncing things off others helps me a lot.