I got like 4 years on here, 2.5 to 3 of them were spent being a lot more incendiary than I am now. I know for a fact that there's people that've blocked me, because I've had people do much worse lol

[–] Edie@hexbear.net 6 points 1 week ago (1 children)

I haven't spent nearly as long, and I don't think I've been incendiary, but I still wonder if anyone has blocked me.

[–] Alaskaball@hexbear.net 6 points 1 week ago (1 children)

Probably not, you're such a kind and cute librarian, I couldn't think of a reason you'd be blocked.

[–] Edie@hexbear.net 6 points 1 week ago (2 children)

I also worry that, e.g. Cowbee is irritated with me commenting so much.

I love (/s) my autism or whatever it is that makes me like this.

[–] Alaskaball@hexbear.net 7 points 1 week ago

I don't think Cowbee's irritated. I think that your mindfulness of your actions and your eagerness to learn and grow more greatly outweighs any slight other people may perceive.

[–] Cowbee@hexbear.net 5 points 1 week ago (1 children)

Just saw this! Before I logout and touch-grass , I am absolutely not annoyed! I apologize if I gave you that impression. If anything, I think people are annoyed at me, lmao.

meow-hug

[–] Edie@hexbear.net 2 points 6 days ago (1 children)

Nothing gave that impression

[–] Cowbee@hexbear.net 2 points 6 days ago (1 children)

Thank goodness! I've been worried that I've been making people uncomfortable lately, I suck at reading social cues and there's been talk of chauvanism and misogyny among the [he/him] users so I've been trying to self-crit

[–] Edie@hexbear.net 2 points 6 days ago* (last edited 6 days ago) (1 children)

It is simply the part of my brain that I want to kill doing what I want to kill it for.

"What if you did something wrong" "remember this thing you did? You should feel bad about it, here are some chemicals to make you feel bad"

[–] Cowbee@hexbear.net 2 points 6 days ago

Ugh, I know what you mean. That part of my brain has been very loud the last few weeks.

[–] Cowbee@hexbear.net 6 points 1 week ago* (last edited 1 week ago)

Same, wonder if I've rubbed anyone the wrong way enough to block me... kinda worry about it because if I am annoying enough and people don't call me out for fear of drama or sectatianism or something I won't improve, and that worries me ohnoes

I dunno, I'm just a really timid, insecure, non-confrontational person who overthinks everything in general, even if nobody here has directly called me out I invent my own ghosts and demons

I know libs block my Lemmy.ml account but I don't care about pleasing LIB

[–] infuziSporg@hexbear.net 4 points 1 week ago (1 children)

A block feature? What block feature?

[–] bumpusoot@hexbear.net 3 points 1 week ago

I wouldn't be surprised if I was the hexbear user with the most blocked users and comms ever. And I don't have you blocked, so it's a good start.

[–] Lemmygradwontallowme@hexbear.net 3 points 1 week ago

Who blocks anyone like me anyway?

Don't think anyone finds me too alarming to do so