Interesting interaction with stepmom yesterday. She trimmed my hair and when she finished asked if she could braid the top. Later, it was brought up and I mentioned my sister and her friend braid my wig's hair for a costume I wore like 7 months ago and my step mom was like "Are you trying to tell us something?" (they didn't know I had cosplayed as a girl character until recently, when I brought it up as a way of trying to say something but then chickened out; this time I just brought it up because it was relevant). My cousin was immediately just like "Walrus was just cosplaying" but my stepmom was like "let Walrus answer." I gave a timid "maybe" and the topic was dropped.

So, I think step-mom clearly suspected I'm trans and I wasn't just imagining that. She asked if I was a woman 1.5 years ago, which I said "no" since I consider myself an NB (this question came up in the middle of my mom going on an enbiphobic rant) but she hadn't said anything directly about the topic since but like... also seemed to occasionally be poking in that direction ever since. I guess I'm sorta out to her now? Mom was there and totally ignored the conversation (similar to the other week when we visited).

And I'm wondering again if my cousin still doesn't think I'm trans or if he was just trying to give me cover in case I didn't want to talk about it. I guess no one has explicitly said I'm trans in front of him while he was listening and sober? But between discussion of names (I still use birthname), pronouns, dislike of certain masculine terms (man, uncle, etc), presenting in fem ways at times, and taking HRT, I'd think he'd figure it out anyways.