I relate a lot. People always say to not care about what other people think. But how can I do that when my ENTIRE LIFE is made up by my friends, family, coworkers, et cetera
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It's ADHD, Autism, OCD, schizophrenia, anxiety, depression, bi-polar, aspd, etc etc etc etc
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would you cease to exist it they were not apart your life? do you live for them? or is your life your own?
I don't think any human can exist, as we understand it, in complete solitude. We are social creatures by our innate nature.
That's not my point. The people around me are what make life worth living
now that would make me sad
weed or clonazepam are the only things that help tbh
You're not alone. When you have your behavior closely policed by parents trying to quash your outward neurodivergence and are mocked by your peers growing up, it's hard not to be. It also has led to me developing intense rejection sensitivity dysphoria. It's hard not to care about what other people think when any (perceived) negative feedback makes you feel like you've been stabbed in the stomach. Things can improve, but it's tough.
Hey do you mind explaining what 'rejection sensitivity dysphoria' is? I've never heard or read of it before and it would be quite nice if it came from a comrade.
Sure, it's a dysphoric reaction to negative feedback from others, so experiences of rejection, disapproval, exclusion, etc. can cause extreme emotional reactions. Like for me, when I was younger I could start crying easily from criticism that most others would not consider nearly serious enough to warrant that reaction. Even today, it can cause me to get unreasonably upset and contributes to me self-isolating and avoiding social interactions with others. It can be so intense that I can perceive negative reactions from others that don't really exist because it is such a painful experience I am protecting myself from even the slightest possibility of it happening. It is possibly the most unpleasant aspect of neurodivergence to me, although I am not sure exactly what causes it.
I still think about mistakes I made in high school, over 20 years ago
Pretty sure this is just normal 
lol yeah me too
I realized recently, had almost an epiphany, that I almost never do or say what I want, but only ever what I think I should. It becomes a problem in writing. I've had to write essays and other things where I've agonized over wording for hours and allowed my inner self-critic to torture itself over what kind of thing I should write, what kind of tone, wording, structure, all that. With writing, there are so many endless ways to write a sentence or a paragraph or an essay, that it becomes a bottomless problem to reason your way to the right one. At some point it has to be an expression of you, but if your internal self-critic is louder than you are then it can be a challenge.
This is me, you've quite literally put into words my experience. Best of luck and hope things are better for you.
yeah dude, you too! I wish you luck with it. I'll tell you that, in the brief moments when I manage to speak and act how I want to and not how I think I should, it feels very exposed, like I'll get ridiculed at any moment. I think I've been trying to fit in my whole life. It's to the point where, most of the time, I don't even know how I want to speak and act. I have to consciously stop myself from acting out of habit. It will take practice. I'm treating it like physical therapy, like learning how to walk again after nerve damage.
I wish I was just better. Than whatever dumb thing I say or do is overlooked by my skills/attractiveness/wealth/charisma/etc.