come on ash, your posts were always good and had value, fight me about it. sry but not gonna affirm you putting yourself down like this. "lolcow" "cringe" "repulsive" nobody sees it that way but you. you wouldn't talk about someone else in the community that way, you don't get to do it to yourself. this is just bullying. glad you're back but sorry you're feeling this way, seems like a really negative and frankly hateful perspective on yourself which isn't reflective of how anyone here views you really. this kind of self flagellation is completely unnecessary. I'm sorry if this is harsh but "condescending politeness" seems like a really disordered view of the reception to your posts, I and many others sincerely appreciated them, looked forward to them even and missed them while you were away. the idea that traa users were just tolerating your presence is simply not the case. we weren't all playing a big joke on you. you're actually a highly valued member of the community and you posting a lot was very much welcome. I'm sorry you're feeling this way, i totally know how that goes. but if you're able, you have to try to to look on yourself with the same kindness and grace you always extended to people on here. I know it's really fuckin hard sometimes. really am glad you're back.
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I am still mildly proud of bullying Whipping Girl, it's not exactly the 5D chess of theory but given the lack of spoons I managed to put words in the computer. Sometimes my posting is pretty sick.
However I'm utterly unconvinced that nobody else in the community holds this negative and hateful perspective on me. Hexbear is too polite a place for it, but it's out there, I am certain. I do know people have liked my postings (thank you) because every now and then I go over my comment sections and whatever, but being embarrassingly bad to the point of offense at talking to people wears on a person. What actually happened is that I realised I have this little brain-voice that tells me I am dogshit, and I was posting loudly and constantly. Mostly this was born from a genuine commitment to unmasking and posting honestly, but secretly also the positive replies and stuff were staving off the brain-voice. I didn't feel like this was a healthy relationship to socialising, even online, so I just stopped, and that basically crushed out the "fuck it we ball" energy I'd built up. That's how I got here.
I know that there is no coordinated "big joke" because that would be goofy, but it only takes someone thinking shitty things about me and not outwardly saying for it to become at least a little joke. And since the space is too nice to tolerate outwardly saying shitty things to people...
Thank you for saying though, I have been cooking up posts to make everyone regret ever saying anything nice in this thread !
I believe in cringe accelerationism.
That's the cool and based kind of cringe, though.
OMG SHE'S BACK
Also, embrace cringe. Cringe is just a negative word for sincerity.
It pretty much is, and I hate cringe culture as it exists as well, here I'm trying to weaponise it primarily for indicating who is really annoying and pissing people off all the time.
I tried "embracing cringe", which you can tell based on how often I spilt my guts on here. It kind of hurts though, because it turns out you can't really just raw-dog anxiety forever.
I want to know why you thought it was fine to act like the kind of fuckin internet posting I do was fine
I don't remember your exact posts, but I am always going to remember how you made me feel when I was first figuring out gender. I remember you being compassionate, and kind, and explaining things to me. I remember feeling hopelessly alone, lost, and dysphoric. And you'd almost always have something to say to me or offer. I distinctly remember posting and hoping you were still awake so we could talk a little bit. I remember talking long into the night with you. I remember how comfy you made me feel. That was extremely valuable to me and I miss you a lot.
I've posted a lot of horrifically cringe things in the mega over the last year. Things I hope no one remembers, even if I think about them all the time.
Threadwinner thus far I like that I had a positive impact on someone, and my borderline insomnia did too, lol lmao.
I don't always catch your posts before they get 'd but they have never made me cringe, honestly. Too earnest and decent, y'know?
sorry nerd, i love your posting and presence and i'm glad to see you back. pistols at dawn if you want to fight about it
Because your posting is valuable, unique, and entertaining. Entertaining in a genuine "this is written in such a fun way" and distinctly not a lolcow way.
if you'd just said "this is terrible" or maybe even "lol cringe" at some point.
You would have beaten us into submission
I like your posting nerd
Why, but thanks...
wb, you're cool and your absence was noticed /gen
No but also thanks for saying.
I didn't think your posts were cringe, so either that makes me more cringe, or your cringe isn't actually all that cringe, and you're being hard on yourself unjustly. Trust me, this is math. Trust me, I made a New Vegas effort-comment on the millitary structure of the NCR, and how to make it fresh and sensible.
Anyways, welcome back!
I actually want to say, in universe iirc the NCR has at least some heavy industry. They have working vertibirds and stuff (long after the Enclave disbanded) at Hoover Dam, they mint their own currency. While it wouldn't fit with their military ethos, it wouldn't surprise me if they'd come up with replacement parts for power armour too and learned how to pilot it. The biggest issue is clearly that NCR power armour was a pointless nostalgia grab built to sell skins in Fallout 76 :^) good effortpost.
Also math is apex cringe, practitioners of math are ableist reactionaries.
I can't say I know what you're talking about i just had a look at your profile and it seems pretty standard hexbear user to me
there's only two kinds of people: people who admit to cringing at their younger self, and damned liars
Your self perception and how other people perceive you have like no correlation whatsoever lol. The people have spoken and the people think you're cool
They are always saying this, which seems unlikely. How can this level of obnoxious not be insufferable to at least somebody?
missed ya
Shouldn't
you're back, I'm incapable of liking anything ironically and I still think your postings on gender are great, posting gender acceleration manifesto helped me realize I'm
so if nothing else hope that helps. I'm also pretty
so I do worry how I come off too but I really don't think anyone is fucking with you
Ash posting is good posting actually.
Nah, mostly it's bewildered screeching about some novel you've never once heard of
i genuinely thought you and your posts were pretty cool and still do. cringe culture sucks, you're not cringe and no one else is either. i really hope you're ok comrade
Why, but thanks... For me, cringe is when you annoy the fuck out of people, I guess. It is true generally that nobody else on hb is cringe =)
I'm not dead I guess, so that's something!
i don't know who any of you are
i think there's a piss bird sometimes?
it's good to post cringe actually, my posting has gotten worse over the years and I love it
I think you are cool.
It's not very nice to keep autistic children around as your goofy lolcow, you know.
Nah, Hexbear's lolcows are L*dditors who get repeatedly posted on /c/slop. I think one of them is PugJesus(?) or something.
Perhaps having the slop comm is socially useful in that making liberals the targeted outgroup for derision (deserved) keeps the bearsite from having any ugly inter-user conflict on that level? Is c/slop 5D chess?
There are people who actually post things of value in those threads.
Hahahahaha!
Maybe in the other megas, but the trans one is just a huge pile of cringy shitposts. And that’s exactly how it should be and why people there are missing you.
I don't think I'd describe the trans mega as cringy, even my own posts in it most times. People do use it like posting twitter jokes or w/e, but I can honestly say nothing there has ever made me cringe, and sometimes my megaposting was cool. Sometimes
Exhibit A: https://hexbear.net/comment/6027929
Exhibit B: https://hexbear.net/comment/6011367
Exhibit C: https://hexbear.net/comment/6025067
There are people who actually post things of value in those threads.
I mostly post about fucking VTubers, nothing could be worse than that
Real talk though, I'm fucking terrible at and terrified of expressing myself. I post easily less than 10% of the words I write here--and that's honestly pretty good by my standards because outside of Hexbear I barely attempt to write or say anything at all beyond the most superficial social niceties. So I really appreciate people who are able to just be vulnerable and talk about all sorts of things without letting the cop in their heads stop them. Also, I'm pretty bad at noticing usernames when I'm reading through threads, but I know I've seen you around a lot and we've interacted a few times and I've never found you cringe. Glad to have you back!
ooooh she's back!
There are people who actually post things of value in those threads.
lmao yes
I even wrote a huge thing about Wayhaven, which was pretty exciting. I caught up to end of book three, I love Wayhaven. "Back" might be a bit much though...
Honestly I don't think I've come across your posts or paid attention to them enough to recognize you but I went through your comment history and I do not find it cringe.
Where did you go? I thought you hadn't posted in a while.
I stopped talking because I didn't like that social interactions online every day were weighed against the brain voice that tells me I am dogshit, y'know posting for approval and encouragement, I wasn't a fan. So I stopped, which had the effect of destroying any confidence I had left
I don't know if this is in reference to a particular post kr anything, I'm guessing it's regarding the long-form video game analysis? But i did notice you were gone and missed your posting. I don't think it's cringe at all
Cringe posting is the most effective way for me to identify the people worth listening to. Have you considered it might be cringe to disavow previous cringe posting
I know others have said it, but i really appreciated getting to talk to you about everything from the gender accelerationist manifesto to wayhaven to bitching about family. You also sat with me in the thread after i posted genuine psychotic shit and broke down about it, that was really nice.
Even if you dont stick around, i hope you pop in and say hi every now and again
Alr