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Also therapy. Getting it out in one way or another helps too - ugly crying and a heavy bag has been a welcome addition, but I like journaling too. Thought I could outpace it with endurance running or endurance drinking, but neither my knees nor my stomach could keep up lol. So everything in moderation unfortunately. Also weed lol.
Yeah it’s been worse lately for sure, menty b’s used to be an annual/biannual thing but now are much more regular- for the same reasons others have mentioned- grief for a world in pain, grief for powerlessness, grief for seeing capital warp some and crush others. What’s helped? Idk. Been getting into philosophy/theology a bit and my takeaway has been, “existence is suffering, our purpose is to lessen that suffering for those around us in whatever way we can”. At its minimum that’s carrying a lighter or cash so I can share with someone who asks, and that’s led to lots of interesting conversations with people…and often hearing fun new ways how they’re being fed headlong into the woodchipper :/ BUT it’s reinforced my connection and commitment to exactly who we’re hoping to shape a better world for.
TLDR: life is an endless cycle of suffering, but as you have the capacity, you can be a port in the storm for others and thereby find solace in their camaraderie. It doesn’t fix the suffering, but it gives a small ember of hope.
Thanks for trying to work for the NRCS - they do good work (imo) but are way underfunded and have a habit of grinding down good engineers. Maybe you’ll get to do their work on contract! I’ve designed a handful of ACEP sites as a consultant - NRCS has produced so many good resources for rural engineering and ecosystem restoration - it’s too bad they’ve gotten fucked up so much by austerity (and the the capitalist desire for converting ag land to development).