Today I experienced that awkward situation where people will start spouting transphobic opinions without knowing you're trans. Funnily enough, one of them was the guy I recently went on a date with😬 I almost want to tell him I'm trans just to fuck with him as he's very interested in meeting up again, but I'm just going to break it off and luckily I'll likely never see him again as he's a few semesters ahead of me and the course we are currently on together is basically finished😅
PopPrincess
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The Anglosphere is generally the best bet as they have the best gender affirming care. Europe is mostly shit, Spain, France and Germany seem to be the better countries here, but e.g. the surgical coverage in Europe is terrible compared to blue US states and some European countries are equivalent or probably even worse than some of the red US states in terms of trans rights and gender affirming care.
From what I've heard the UK is quite awful. Canada, Australia and New Zealand seem to be decent with Canada probably being the best of the three.
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It's honestly such a terrible feeling. I hope you are doing okay in spite of it❤️
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Yess you get it. It feels so fucking terrible, just a big black hole in my life. Just knowing it's impossible no matter what I do absolutely destroys me. I just find myself wondering what I'm even doing with my life, like what is the meaning of all this bullshit when I'll never get to achieve even a fraction of my dream.
It has also become one of the absolute worst parts of my dysphoria. I'd be able to cope with the rest of my awful body if I could at least have kids, but as it is there is no upside to this awful existence. It's literally just misery through and through.
I hope you are doing okay in spite of the dysphoria❤️
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Idk I'm stunted due to anxiety and depression, not sure I'd be perfect for anything other than being a work-a-holic. I kind of hope I die of a heart attack in my 30s or something, until then I can cope by sinking all my time into studying and working.
I'd never judge another woman to not be a proper woman. I direct those feelings towards myself because I am disgusted by myself and my body.
Idk I should probably just go to bed😅
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Yaa I get you, I didn't care about relationships or having kids at all pre-transition. I felt so disconnected from my life.
Yeah I was hoping Trump wouldn't win, but I'd be moving in 6 years if at all, so I'll have some time to see how the situation develops. Canada is not a possibility, but Australia and New Zealand are viable options though they are more restrictive in regards to what I could do with my degree. I'll have to see what happens, if by some miracle I'm in a relationship by the time I finish my degree I might stay in Denmark.
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Yeah Denmark is an awful country. Idk I don't really care about these thoughts, I feel kind of messed up like sometimes I actively want to get worse, but I managed to mostly get my life back on track so I'll hopefully not screw it up again.
I don't think I'm sick/dysfunctional enough to qualify for help by social workers. From the outside looking in I'm highly functional and most of my friends are shocked by how many things I manage to balance in my day to day life. And I don't trust the municipality either, so I won't seek help there either, it's too risky to do before I hopefully get the last surgery covered.
I might be able to save it up, but currently I'm saving up for 2nd FFS and possibly some other surgeries. The government also shafted me with a recent reform, so it complicates it a bit. I was thinking of moving to the US after finishing my degree, but I wouldn't be able to save much there for at least the first 5-6 years, so I'll have to decide on what to do as I don't want to stay in Denmark if possible.
Yeah I hate dating honestly, it's so terrible. Either the guy is a chaser or he'll reject me for being trans😭
I love oatmeal. Cheap, easy and delicious, what's not to like😍
I've just used the same bralettes for almost 3 years since beginning transition though I haven't really had any breast growth so idk😅
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I guess I see what you mean, but idk I still feel like I'm not a woman even though I live my life as one and am seen as one. Generally I don't care what society thinks of me, most of my dysphoria seems inherent and stems from my body. E.g. the thought of having a prostate and XY chromosomes makes me feel sick to my stomach, or looking in the mirror and seeing how puberty mangled my body. If I had the choice between life as a trans woman or never having been born, I'd rather never have been born honestly.
Thank you, but I doubt there will be a second date after I tell him that I'm trans :(
And sorry for the negativity😅
Yaa it's weird, the conversation was about height and then it turned to Thailand, I don't remember how😅
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But of course the usual came up about how you can't know if a woman in Thailand is a woman🙄Then the guy I went on a date with said that being trans couldn't be healthy because trans people have to take hormones and cut their dick off, and he was sure that trans people would at most live to 50 years of age🙄
And then they finished off by misgendering Elon Musk's trans daughter and saying that she fumbled the bag by disowning Elon🙄
I honestly don't know why it's something that gets brought up. Like trans visibility is generally quite low here in Denmark too, but bigots gonna be bigots I guess.