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Today: a short yap about computer hardware:
Damn I love the AM4 socket its so upgradable yay, bought a Ryzen 9 5900X for our old desktop soon to be homelab and so excited for it.
Computers are fun! ~~(and expensive)~~
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pregnancy dysphoria and thoughts on suicide
Anyone else get really sad that they'll never get to have kids? It makes me want to end my life honestly. Idk it feels like most of my life plans are basically unachievable. Like what am I supposed to do with this... I can't fathom wasting my time living till I'm 80 or something.Idk I sometimes feel like I'm destined for suicide. Like it's something that's unchangeable no matter what I do. It's not like I'm even terribly depressed or sad at all currently, it's just a thought I get quite often even when not suicidal.
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I've felt destined for it for years and years at this point. Its been so long since I thought I'd make it. Its going to happen at some point and I don't feel like I can avoid it.spoiler
It's honestly such a terrible feeling. I hope you are doing okay in spite of itβ€οΈ