What over ears do you use? (Also i have big ears... Would they work for big ears?) having something that is usable all day would be wonderful
lilypad
joined 2 years ago
The blue team literally prevented him from using tactics that americas enemies had already used against america. How do the military even call this a war game? Its more akin to a fantasy novel where the hero cant lose.
Even before that, Theodor Herzl, the founder of modern political Zionism, was termed by some as a self-hating Jew. Maybe because Herzl celebrated Christmas and even had a Christmas tree in his home.
Couldnt be because he said were made up of the waste parts of all other races, no, its because he had a christmas tree.
We know how to take back their wealth: 
Ugh ikr!? Like, im slowly accepting that im probably autistic, and viewing this through that lens. And even when im the one disrupting the schedule its really upsetting and i need an hour or two to calm down, and it totally throws the rest of my day off and fucks up my mood and sometimes continues into the next day. And here it was someone else disrupting the schedule and like its ok they have needs that should be respected but also theres a part of me thats just screammmmmmiiiinnnggggg inside, cause i was looking forward to group time and really need to be around people who get me right now (and also cause ttrpgs are super fun) but also like fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck my entire evening and the only structure to my day today has been disrupteddddd and it suuuccckkkksssss.
Ahhhh i hate canceled plans its so upsetting when the schedule is disrupted ahhhhhh!!!! Even when its me disrupting the schedule its really upsetting ahhhhh!!!!
Narrator: they were
vent, meds, mh
So exhausted. So overwhelmed. So empty. All from nothing. Still unemployed. Living situation deteriorated. I just... I cant anymore. And ive been here before. So i know that I will. But i just cant. The fear. The anxiety. The paranoia. Non of it rooted in reality. The hunger. The disgust at food. The horror of meds. Ive been on them and off them and on them and off them. Different every time. Never right. Always never enough or too much. Im not on them right now. The only thing that addresses my (mild?) impulsivity is crippling anxiety that keeps me from doing anything. No one will help with the impulsivity because its hidden behind the anxiety. So they do the anxiety stuff. But then cant control my actions. I spend. And spend and spend and spend. I went off my meds when i started looking at used cars (cannot afford car rn) and ordering takeaway/delivery every day. Id rather have the crippling anxiety and constant low grade depression with occasional crashes into deep depressive episodes than blow everything and end up on the street. But now im back in the nothingness. Theres just... Nothing.
spoiler cw si Cant i just be free? Cant i just leave? Cant i be done with this. I dont want to be here. Every day is painful. Or joyous. But then the joy leaves and the pain says hey you took a respite lets hit you extra hard now. :::
burnout, non-personhood, doomer
Through my life ive burned out a few times. First i tried to head-down-power-through it (that went well). Then i tried ignoring it and just scaling back a little (also went well). Then the last couple times ive just stopped earlier than i needed to in order to avoid the really bad-bad effects of burnout. But the one constant has been that every time ive dealt with burnout, ive never recovered my same level of functionality that i had before. Im effectively nonfunctional at this point. Im not even really a person. And i dont want to be. Im a NEET and have been for almost two years. Im immensely privilidged. And i see people who could do more with my resources. Who could actually live. Who would be able to get back on their feet. Im so thankful, but part of me just wants to send every drop of money in my bank acct to someone better than myself. Someone who could actually use it to live a life thats not constant pain. My body is trash. My brain is fucked. My heart is broken. I dont want to be here anymore. Im trying to start applying for jobs again, but who would hire someone who randomly gets laid up for weeks at a time with depressive episodes? How can I even begin moving forward? Ive failed my family, my friends, my roommates... There is no redemption that Im capable of doing.
cw si
My current plan is to just go as long as I can, and once the resources are all used up, take a walk to the bridge.
Is this what giving up looks like?
Cheese episode
Cutting on people episode
Vore episode
Could be a lot of things
I just want to put this out there: from a haaretz poll, 31% of secular israelis believe that when an enemy city is captured, all inhabitants should be killed. That number only goes up as people get more orthodox.
Thats not to say they deserve the inhumane treatment they have visited upon palestinians to be visited upon them. But it is to say that never again is an incomplete sentence. It should read never again, by any means neccessary.
(cw sv) And ultimately, dying in a missile attack is far more humane than
being gangremovedd to death.
I dont know what dezionification should look like. But im pretty sure that if its done by the west it will look like denazification - that is to say, a small number of elites will be blamed and killed/imprisoned, and the people on the ground committing atrocities will walk free. Their children and grandchildren will receive zionist indoctrination, and no real education about why zionism is bad will take place.
This is some of the people in my life and they are absolutely insufferable to have any sort of conversation with politically. "Communists are all fascists waiting to seize power" and shit like that. This one person, they say this shit and then turn around and say "i dont know what to think and believe, but i have faith in anarchy" and im just sitting there like wtf you literally just called me and people i respect fascists and then admit to not having any ideological framework??? Like, if you dont actively develop your ideology you will end up adopting the cultural default ideology, we have talked about this and they agreed with me, like, deeply unserious people using punk and anarchist aesthetics because it "looks cool".