Hiiii!
Today: a short yap about computer hardware:
Damn I love the AM4 socket its so upgradable yay, bought a Ryzen 9 5900X for our old desktop soon to be homelab and so excited for it.
Computers are fun! ~~(and expensive)~~
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As a reminder, please do not discuss current struggle sessions in the mega. We want this to be a little oasis for all of us and the best way to do that is not to feed into existing conflict on the site.
Also, be sure to properly give content warnings and put sensitive subjects behind proper spoiler tags. It's for the mental health of not just your comrades, but yourself as well.
Here is a screenshot of where to find the spoiler button.
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I have never been able to deal with anything. I've always been weak and pathetic. I don't think there's anything that could have gone better for me, to make me not turn out like this.
I just don't want to feel like this anymore. Why can't I be free. Why is dying just... Nothing. There is no bliss, no great life, it's just over. It's just suffering my whole existence and then it's over. Why don't I get to not suffer. :::
Oh Egg you poor dear i'm so sorry to hear this ๐ซ It sounds like you're going through a very difficult time I wish there was something I could do for you! I hope you are getting some help locally??
๐ซ No, not really unfortunately. Nothing helpful. idek what would be helpful though.
That's some pretty heavy stuff to be going through on your own. My heart goes out to you i spent a long time wrestling those black thoughts and I know how miserable it can be.
For what it's worth I care about you and what happens to you and I know there's others here who do too. Please be kind to yourself!