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Today: a short yap about computer hardware:
Damn I love the AM4 socket its so upgradable yay, bought a Ryzen 9 5900X for our old desktop soon to be homelab and so excited for it.
Computers are fun! ~~(and expensive)~~
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pregnancy dysphoria and thoughts on suicide
Anyone else get really sad that they'll never get to have kids? It makes me want to end my life honestly. Idk it feels like most of my life plans are basically unachievable. Like what am I supposed to do with this... I can't fathom wasting my time living till I'm 80 or something.Idk I sometimes feel like I'm destined for suicide. Like it's something that's unchangeable no matter what I do. It's not like I'm even terribly depressed or sad at all currently, it's just a thought I get quite often even when not suicidal.
When I was earlier in transition it bothered me, but I feel like I couldn’t handle the responsibility and my desire for it has waned because of that.
My desire for it has only increased, especially since making it out of the early transition phase and now passing consistently. The thought definitely seems scary, but ideally you'd be sharing the responsibility with a partner. If I could have kids I would be determined not to repeat my parents mistakes. I'm also quite good at balancing many things and generally being responsible for many things, so I think it would be something I could handle, but I'll never know :(