The genocide unearthed a lot of information I was unaware of from before oct 7, but that's like background. The genocide itself,... , I learned I lack any kind of theory to explain zionazi attitudes, and the generally racist genocidal sentiment on displau from average israelis, and even more heinous from their soldiers. I just,... I wish I knew how to think about it, because it floors me emotionally. How can people be such bastards? I learned what modern ordinance does when dropped on a bunch of tents. I know the sound a distraught father make carrying lifeless child. I know how to recognize shock. I've had to learn how to process my own emotion differently, because I've become such a raw nerve I have to keep myself from crying several times a day. I know it's just part of my political consciousness process, but my God why does letting yourself give a damn have to hurt so fucking bad? The strength and trauma coming from Palestinians is just,.... too much for me to process.

[–] ShimmeringKoi@hexbear.net 5 points 1 week ago* (last edited 1 week ago)

I just,... I wish I knew how to think about it, because it floors me emotionally. How can people be such bastards?

I do my best to avoid trying to wrap my head around it, because it seems like such a fruitless and maddening task. Some things are only for the hollow damned to know.

[–] mahmoud@hexbear.net 2 points 1 week ago

And these same soldiers, when their service ends, travel and no one holds them accountable. As long as there is no punishment for them, their brutality and injustice will increase, because there is no one to punish them. We live in an unjust world that sees the killing before its eyes and remains silent. Some of them support the criminals and finance them with weapons and money. Really thank you my friend for your humanity and feelings towards us You are truly better than what we thought our Arab brothers were, who are now financing the American government, which is the main reason for our killing. I swear to you that these feelings of yours and your support and the support of the people present here, I have not seen from those we thought were our brothers.