worrying about shit I haven't dealt with yet (transphobia) just bitching about shit, doomerism/suicide mention, negativity about being trans
Kinda freaking out about bathroom bill stuff. Society just hates us and makes it very clear they just want to inflict pain on me. People are genuinely just cruel. Society is always looking for a new excuse to throw me in jail/torment me just because I fucking had to be born this way. Fucking hate society. Today bathroom stuff is normal, they're working on making all trans kids go through the wrong puberty, and let's be real they're probably going to come after hrt at some point. Society wants to drive me to kill myself. What a hostile world. And this is literally the best anything is going to get as conditions worsen and apparently what does everyone do when food is harder to buy? Oh yea blame the people on the absolute bottom of the ladder. Fucking morons, all of them.
Whatever I told myself I'd stop posting about this topic because I'm such a fucking drama whore and terrible influence on everyone around me. God I'm so toxic and shitty. spoiler eating issues You know why I'm flipping out? Because I ate too much yesterday. Realistically I bet I ate less then 1500 calories, and that's still too much apparently. Why do I have to be in pain to not feel like shit. Why do I have to restrict so hard. Apparently my life is just inescapable pain.
Why fucking live like that. And it literally will never improve, society is getting shittier as conditions worsen, fascism is getting more blatant, and literally top of their list is trans people. :::