My friend kind of disappeared on me. We started out by dating, and it was great for the most part. We did decide to just be friends after a while, but then we were actually friends and it was so nice. We lived near each other, and would get together at least like once a week for the last few months. It was usually pretty casual, like we'd get coffee or work out together or he'd come over for dinner. Sometimes we'd end up spending the whole weekend together tho. It was honestly so nice having a friend like across the street, it's been years since I've had that.

He has family living in a different state, and visited them over the holidays. The day he flew out, we got breakfast at some diner he likes and then I drove him to the airport. That was the last time I heard from him. I expected him to be busy with family and stuff, and I wasn't to surprised not to hear from him at first. I did ask him how the trip was going a couple of times. Anyway, know it's been a month and I haven't heard a thing. None of my friends who know him have heard anything either. He hasn't posted anything to social media in a while either. The trip was supposed to be over by now I thought.

I reached out to one of his friends, who I don't know as well. I think I fucked that up tho. Like I was way too direct in asking about him and I think I weirded her out. I should have been smarter, but I was just worried.

I mean he doesn't owe me anything, but it would be nice to have a little closure. Like I have no idea what happened. Did he not feel the same way about the just friends thing? Or did he just decide he didn't have time for me for other reasons? Or did he decide to stay with his family and not come back, which wouldn't surprise me that much honestly. Or is something wrong? I feel like I'm never gonna know and it sucks.

Had a very productive day and decluttered and took recycling to the dump that they don't take on the street pickup, went to the gym, did my grocery shopping and took Rosie and Goggles to their first vet appointment and got their shots and microchips (they did really well! Goggles wanted to hold onto my shoulder and grumbled a little bit they were very good in the car and didn't scratch or anything)

I'm really annoying today, sorry everyone

Sleep deprived and kinda fucked up off pain meds for the hand

Honestly weirdly having a really good time? Like "okay cool, I'm wounded and people expect less of me irl now for awhile and are all really nice to me"

Feel like I exorcized something losing my shit the last time and everything's coming up Milhouse now

My mind seems to be calming down now. Thankfully. Seems that PMS may have exacerbated my negative feelings a small bit there, but I'm coming down from it thanks to everyone sharing their stories with me in the last thread. That said...

I also measured my breasts for the first time since surgery about 2 months ago. My bra size is apparently 38K, but I want to try on some bras to ensure that that is actually the case. That just seems overly large to me. Granted I was a small 38F prior to surgery, but still. 38K is like true territory and seems unrealistic.

Planet fitness lunk alarm is discriminatory toward lunks like myself I've no other means to compensate for my inadequate life than through being toxic at the gym

does "DIY HRT" mean synthesizing it yourself, or can you also buy premade stuff outside of prescriptions? I want to try to stick with prescriptions as long as I can, but I kind of want to keep some extra around just in case things get desperate here in amerikkka. if it's the former... well let's just say I'd strongly prefer the latter, if anyone can recommend reputable vendors.

Churches should sing more hyrns and themns

Tracha has multiple rooms now! Tracha Vent and Tracha Aux (to make it less overwhelming at peak hours), per popular request. If you still have a reason for not joining please lmk and PM me! For more details please check https://rentry.co/tracha#tracha-rooms

If you happen to live in a deep blue state, exactly how much fear should you be feeling right now? My first impression is that not a whole lot will change for me except being unable to change legal sex on my passport

Hmm, maybe I should go on a hike today. checks temperature oh that's right it's really cold. I still might do it, tbh.

Scammers on redbook continue to try to scam me by enticing me with shit from steam or google play, I merely keep talking about how they stopped making good sonic games after sonic and the black knight

I don’t know if I’m put together enough to deal with the facial hair I’ll get from hrt.

Golden Claw retrieved for my beautiful love Camilla. Absolute zero curiosity as to what's further in this deep dark barrow. Turning around right now.

Consult for laser hair removal is going pretty well. The nurse doing the consult has worked with trans patients before as was understanding (was very nervous about potential transphobic reactions). Just waiting to see the quote.

EDIT: Looking like $200/session for face + neck. I don't know if that seems high or is ballpark. I can afford it, but I am still shopping around.

Gathering forces once again.