My tits are actually pretty big now, I'm just so tall and my ribcage is so big and stuff that I feel like they still look pretty small

Being mspec mono can be dangerous, for example you might give people the idea that they can use labels in good faith to describe their unique experiences! They might also learn about the historical basis for such terminologies.

hi everyonee

trying to post shit for the billionth time cause im shy and dead inside and trying to externalize and stop lurking

i am transfem but not on estrogen and i hate admitting that, i want to hopefully get on DIY in a good bit but that's another issue for me because of various factors ill probably mention later on, tldr distrust in myself, insecure about some other things

I am a ML and love my politics, although the past year has been rough on me and I, dont know, feel like I have lost my "spark". Feel out of life, trying to learn to be a person again, which is why I lurk here so much and read about how others do, feels like insight for me

other things about me, computer nerd, very sociable but awkward, have a loving gf that i love a lot

i find it hard to bond with people cause mostly everyone else has better things to do but id love to meet people i get along with on here (i talk too much if prompted)

also im very prone to selfhating and dysphoria like 80% of the time so yay

My pink areas on da boobs (idk wtf you call them) have been, swelling and shrinking dramatically depending on the temperature and I'm scared.

Also, I'm wearing a black trench coat that my dad used to wear, have ear length (black) hair and black shoes (no laces or velcro, those slip on types). It's kinda crazy how going on HRT has made me care way more about dressing nicely and grooming myself. And as a result, I now look like a stylised military officer. I just need boots to ~~stamp on the human face for an eternity~~ complete the look.

had a good dream, why'd I have to wake up from it feeling like shit? c'mon, brain, let me have one win

my coworkers randomly brought up la riots today. had to hide my power level, like fym "it doesn't help their cause" be so fr rn we're in the fucking middle east what cause.

Wind Breaker S2 spoilers

My brother starting watching Wind Breaker the other time just telling me the premise that it was some fighting anime. Decided to join in, not expecting much, but it kept being surprisingly wholesome, so we kept watching it together.

spoiler the anime trope warning Was not expecting a show about an all-boys high school to suddenly have an episode featuring a character that seems pretty clearly trans (but its anime, so of course it does that "she's actually a boy" meme). Wasn't expecting suddenly have half an episode showing flashbacks to this newly introduced character struggling as an child with their feelings vs how they felt they had to present themselves for society and finding people who loved them for who they are. Some of it isn't relatable to me, but it seems like one of the best attempts in anime (very low bar unfortunately) to give our stories some attention. And its in some fighting anime of all things. :::

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Saw the trailer for the new Sega racing game crossworld, calling it just that because while I love them changing from sega racing to sonic racing is dumb. Looks alright and being there was cool but damn if Ichiban doesn't look so off model on the face.

Today has been much, much better then the last few days/week has been. Nothing too special happened, just feeling more normal I guess. Did get to see a friend for a few minutes at work which was nice. I know I'm not supposed to apologize but sorry if I worried anyone. Thank you for all the supportive messages.

One of the things Im most looking forward to after bottom surgery is not having to tuck anymore. I tuck all day for these cretins and NOT ONCE has ANYONE ever said "wow I can barely tell you have a penis Terminal, great job" 🙄