So like idk this is a vent post and I have a lot of fear wrapped up in this but recently my mental health has been quite bad. I am starting to think its my estrogen but really it started after a mushroom trip that left me with a lot of obsessive and intrusive thoughts and anxieties (about 2 months ago). Those specific anxieties have mostly dissipated but I'm still left with this feeling of... general anxiety in my chest. Like, it feels hard to breathe kind of? Everything feels overwhelming. And I've noticed that this gets worse when I inject estrogen, and honestly this scares the fuck out of me.

Before this trip honestly I felt for the most part better than I ever have in my entire life. I was so sure that I was a trans woman. I was on the right path. But now it's like, the estrogen seems to be making me feel like shit? Idk what to do. I don't wanna get off estrogen, I don't want to go back to being a man that's for sure. But like I can't even think straight. I feel miserable and I'm scared I was never meant to be a woman or I made all this up in my head and it'll be like this forever. It's incredibly scary.

Honestly idk what to do. I'm 5 Months in. Maybe my levels are too high? Idk. Maybe I need to get my levels checked