mental health talk, specifically anxiety
It's funny, I used to think I didn't really have an anxiety disorder, but now I think it's staring me in my face and I have to face it. I'm not going to get better just trying to deny that it exists. It's affecting my relationships with people, especially since I have horrible anxiety around texting, and that's the main communication channel everyone uses. Getting a panic attack whenever I see a notification that someone texted me and then leaving it unread for weeks because just thinking about it will cause another panic attack is... really just not conducive for modern existence.
My anxiety is also definitely connected to my ADHD and what I suspect is C-PTSD. I get really bad RSD and I experience a ton of shame, which feeds back into the anxiety and makes it worse. I'm honestly a huge mess mental health-wise, it's kind of embarrassing lol.