We weren't just at capacity today, we weren't just at surge capacity today, we were over surge capacity and it didn't let up. This isn't sustainable. I don't know what they're going to do, we have to turn these sick kids away. Even the emergency appys, I'm sorry it's a patient safety issue. We don't have the staff and we're running out of literal beds. They have to get moved to another hospital

It's been a frustrating few days, never let up once. Understaffed, way too many kids, support has been pretty nil, fuck. We're probably going on strike by March. Dunno what the fuck is gonna happen.

the very same government that refuses to recognize me as a woman also recognises Denali as Mt. Cracker and just unilaterally named an entire sea after itself. These guys sound deeply confused

I painted my nails (was definitely not reminded to do so by one of you ;)) and I'm honestly impressed with myself! It's not the best, but it's not bad either, especially considering that I really struggle with fine motor function. Autism strikes again, but HAHA I still win. I'm like 7 months in, have had my nails painted since before I transitioned, and this is the first time I have painted them myself. I feel really proud, like it's one more thing I can do for myself

Aaaaaaaaaa I just started a long shift at work, and can't just distract myself because my clients are also dooming about this stuff.

I switched to patches (from pills) and you can really feel that shit hit the bloodstream almost immediately.

It's freezing today and I had to shovel.

friday rice

Becoming increasingly nervous about my sister’s wedding.

I thought I’d be happier with where I would be in my transition by the time it arrived, but it’s a month away and I’m just as mentally ill as ever.
Idk what I am going to wear, or how I will possibly show up in girl clothes without feeling like a total joke.

My sister just informed me we are doing some stupid shit with my mom and all our siblings where it’s just us in the middle of the dance floor for like a minute, which just adds to the pressure.
I’m coming to your wedding to be supportive not to perform!
It should be illegal to just include this kind of shit in your wedding without other people’s consent I didn’t sign up for this!

Bit idea: getting kicked out of a topless bar for not being a bottom

Thesis: wanting boobs

Antithesis: not wanting boobs

Synthesis: wanting only small boobs

CW: Transphobia and sexism:

So what the fuck should we do now. Im really considering leaving the country

i'm super lucky to have a nice stockpile of HRT that just kinda happened because my pharmacy gives me 1.5x as much e as i need per month and like 4x as much cypro lol. i just say nothing of course. me and one of my gfs share the cypro too and we're still at a net gain per month

unrelatedly, i think i wanna make a cute neocities... i've always hated webdev but it seems worth delving into it for this, clicking through the community sites makes me so happy. it's a cultural revival i'm really here for!

Just got my ears pierced! Just got some plausibly deniable small black studs for now, but I am excited by the possibilities. I feel so much more femme.

I've been so stuck on a particular thing all day, I hate it

I don't think I dislike my legal name, but good god is it jarring being in a car with people I'm not out to and getting called it constantly

I'M THEM

I'VE BEEN THEM

I WILL CONTINUE TO BE THEM

One more cheesy thing before I go back to being cynical lol

Love and solidarity will win ♡

I might be the most mentally ill transgender to ever exist.

Just saw welcome to dorley hall on sale at a local chain bookstore and genuinely shocked to see such a niche online trans fic as a physical book in a brick-and-mortar bookstore. And not a cool, independent bookstore either like a chapter’s in a mall

Edit: not only that, there were like multiple copies as well, and stacked with the cover facing out instead of the spine to attract more attention. Is this a thing? Is dorley mainstream enough to be sold in bookstores or is this one just really weird?

Friend just got boob sweat for the first time and we invite you to celebrate with us.

how wonderful another chance to tell you all how much I love you and how grateful I am for your support and inspiration. Hexbears made my life so much better ❤️

Depressed people finding friends is a trope invented by Bojack Horseman

How do you feel out potential allies? I've been wanting to come out to my sister, but I don't want to do for now if her reaction isn't going to be positive. We have never talked about gender or sexuality in the same room, so I know nothing about her views on the matter. I also feel like I can't just randomly bring up the issue, because I think she would connect the dots.

I did the hike. Very beautiful, but very cold. I'm still thawing and I got back a while ago.

Realizing that I'm a background character to everyone in my life makes me want to be even more invisible

Although I'm finding that I'd love to transition purely out of spite at this point

Edit: Just poking back in to share that my mood has evolved into more of a righteous fury on my behalf, less of a resentment. Although I'm generally mad at the world, and this experience has not changed that.

I don't know if the punished-people-pleaser -> scorched-earth-isolationist pipeline is super common but golly, I'm riding it

got some piercings fuck it hurts!!!!

Bit idea: guy who gets on E to make no nut November easier

Dming people on Redbook asking them if they like sonic until someone replies