it's so over
I remeber wanting to kill myself in highschool but I decided to wait thinking maybe things would get better in college. dropped out of college two years ago and the only reason I havent ended it all is because I'm a coward.
Please be kind to yourself. Not committing suicide is not an act of cowardice, it's an act of courage.
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Crab beholders are actually a thing. They're called Eyes of the Deep
Cyuuuute
Hey just wanted to say I like your posts and hope you stick around, I recognize your account and like seeing you
relatable. at that age there's stuff to look forward to and you don't know which ones are lies. once you're out of college range there's nothing to hang hope on, only things to think about hanging yourself on.
Stick with us comrade.
this is what a dying society look like
I hope this is more of an awareness of depressive symptoms. I was an incredibly depressed teenager and I didn't even know the words for it until I was in college.
But kids have a lot of reason so be depressed these days. There's no guarantee of safety, let alone a future and they've witnessed more capitalism in decay than previous generations because they're able to see it on a screen 24/7.
One thing I told myself though was that if a kid ever came to to me and said they were down or depressed or whatever, I'd listen to them and never treat it like it was small. I'd like to be the person I needed.
It's why fentanyl has taken off as a uniquely American addiction. If you have any sense of intelligence, it feels like there's nothing worth waking up for anymore.
Yeah this unfortunately tracks. It was bad 5-10 years ago and its significantly worse now
As someone who graduated high school a couple years ago, it was fucking terrible. Half our grade was depressed and they put infinitely more energy into suspending and even arresting people for vaping/weed than doing a single thing for mental health.
When I was 15 I told my school counselor I felt depressed, anxious, hopeless, etc. They literally didn't do shit, even direct me to any resources, until after I went to a hospital for being suicidal. Even then it felt very performative, my counselor even implied our generation has it easier. When I was 16 we went into covid lockdown and it honestly felt like a breath of fresh air.
Meanwhile, corporate-controlled media bangs on with the message that teens hated quarantine and wanted back to school
At my school they pretend to care about our mental health and actually have school therapists and councilors, but refuse to do what would actually help all of us and we ask for: reducing the school day and homework load. Scratch that, they reduced the school day by like ten minutes by cutting recess.
Assigning homework should be a literal crime that people go to jail for
Yeah and not just for kids, any work assignment that can't be done at work should be illegal
stg school counsellors should be held accountable for neglect because ive never heard of any who have actually helped mentally ill children. when i got sent to mine after missing school and told him i was extremely depressed and anxious he was just like "so do you wanna go to college or not"
I told my counselor about my problems (autism, ADHD, OCD, PTSD, all undiagnosed and untreated) and he told me I was addicted to playing the guitar and told me I should try walking to the library after school.
hah, ahead of the curve again
Yeah, this is too sad to even joke about for me right now. Poor kids.
What happened in 14?
more important is what happened after '08: nothing. the future just died. there was a slight delay before knock-on effects went exponential is all
Robin Williams died :(
More serious answer: Only thing I can think is that's around when the current political divide started. It's when earnest fascists in America started figuring themselves out and learning how to articulate what they wanted. There were also a lot of sudden scary disasters that year, like plane crashes and an ebola outbreak. That's also the year Russia annexed Crimea and there was a ton of news coverage about how Armageddon was gonna happen soon because of it
But it's also more likely a delayed effect of the impact of the 08 recession.
Pharrell Williams's song "Happy" came out
the real answer
It became obvious that the 'recovery' wasn't gonna happen. Also it was the start of the 2016 election drama.
the lego movie
Underlying material conditions further worsened
Everyone had a good birthday party 🎉
That could have been the year that a critical mass of schools started mandatory school shooter "drills" involving the students.
Those have been shown to increase anxiety among the students that participate in them. The biggest company running these "drills" is for-profit and has no incentive to not scare children.
Ha ha we are in Hell.
we are only as strong as our faith in the heart of the project of the american dream of democratic participation of the people of the heart of the project of the ame- error: loop detected
Post-2008 malaise
And now the west is about to have another financial crisis caused by commercial real estate
seeing I'm a part of the highest peak before the monstrous climb in recent years makes so much sense and i am so sorry for all the gen alphas rn
pretty sure the oldest gen alpha are still only in 6th grade, but yea I imagine they'll be even worse
Line goes up!
The economy is doing great!
Worst general sociocultural aura in modern history, there’s like fucking nothing going for us
At least the 00s were unintentionally tacky in a comedic way with its shittiness, now everything feels like a gruel of deflavored wheat seeds (with some dirt still on them) in room temperature water
Brb flyering every high school in my city so the students realize What Is To Be Done and find their meaning and motivation
cool it with the anti-lockdown remarks 
is there a place to talk about feeling things like this? i cant find c/mental health
https://hexbear.net/c/mentalhealth
But it's locked to new posts.
@Pluto@hexbear.net any idea why it's locked?
Every moment I don't spend doing one of the few things I enjoy feels like a waste. "I do not enjoy life" it's fuckin hard to when the things you enjoy cost $$$$$$$$ and everything else fuckin sucks. I enjoy life for a few hrs a week when I manage to say be outside or playing a board game. But once the activity ends the mehhhh decends.
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