managed to de egg myself just enough to not wear long sleeve everything outside while in the middle of summer

bad news is that my skin that hasn't seen sunlight in several many years is fucking BORNT

My sisters, we cannot allow the News Mega to overtake us!

::: spoiler Had real positive moment of clarity about my gender the other day. (CW intrusive dysphoric thought, NSFW) As some might recall their @ComradeEchidna/Platypus lore, I do softcore bdsm photography modelling (for myself via self-photography it's a whole thing). So I've also seen a lot of bdsm photography of different genders, cis/trans, etc And I was thinking about the phenomena of old sad looking cis crossdressers. You see them on deviant art etc. Just look tragic, sad eyes, awkward looking, etc. And I had an intrusive thought "what's the difference between them and you?". Like felt pretty brutal.

So then I went to look at some stuff I'd done months ago, not recently, and I looked at it with some time and slightly more objectivity and I was like "woah I just see a woman there!". And I was like huh, lightbulb. Not I could possibly be a woman someday if I put in the work, but like I can be a woman right now (or have been in the past too).

At least some of the time, because I'm still thinking a sort of Genderfluid/Non binary situation but maybe somewhat more bigender IDK? Anyway it left me feeling pretty zen and less anxious.

now i'm doing game dev shit for fun am i legally obligated to get programming socks like i'm a meme from a decade ago?

they're really not my style and it's also quite warm atm

I was really starting to get jiggly butt and thighs, and it was nice as hell. I even got some new jorts that fit me super well.

But then I started puking every day, prolly cuz I was smoking too much weed (CHS), and I have lost 10lbs over the last month. My jorts no longer fit very well.

Summer is fun cause I can't tell if the people are staring at me cause I'm trans, or oggling cause I'm finally comfortable enough to show some skin. Either way it's a weird feeling.

Tried buying new glasses today, and the store assistant, when I ask her for help, sends me to the mens section. I do not have new glasses.

Up with Trans

Utena rlly said "I don't want a bride, I want a totally normal boy!"

Sis...

I've noticed that I've been using a mix of pronouns for myself. The other day I caught myself saying "other women"

I will attempt to have a productive day today

i need to post more trans things to make the number go up but i can't think of any trans things to post :(((

ah fuck, my bimbo ass done forgot a bralette for work today and i am feeling it owie

@ashinadash@hexbear.net is your name "Ash in a Dash" or "Ashina Dash" like the pony?

If it's the first one, I've been fucking up

1,000 comments is totally happening this week

There is a sick, twisted, FUCKED UP part of me that sees a CW like this, and goes " Lets fuckin go boys, lets see ya!!!!"

First bloodwork after nearly 3 months showing T still slightly above average for cismen. Never got a baseline right before starting, so not sure what it was beforehand. But at least I have a medical record showing it was not "low" in case people with bad opinions suggest otherwise?

Today was not a good day. Maybe tomorrow will be different...

Is there a better solution for curly bangs than Straightening Iron Violence? My hair is really curly by nature and it's curlier the shorter it is, so my bangs look like I left curlers in overnight.

Sometimes I can just brush em into order, but usually they stick out at absurd angles, and a straightening iron usually results in bangs being flattened or them shortly returning to utter disorganisation.

Why did I never get taught to care for my hair death to my mother for this

I cleaned and redid my audiovisual setup today. It had been collecting dust for years and I finally got up and did something about it, now that I have the tape deck inregrated it feels much more complete than it did before. At this point the only thing I'm missing is a VHS player, otherwise I can play just about any of the more popular media formats aside from what I just mentioned and some of the really high end Blu-rays.

Good Night you all, and God Damn America

my belly is still chubby but it's looking a little more girl chubby and not boy chubby now

if i die imma be a ghost that just hugs trans ppl and tell them they look incredible and tell them its gonna be okay

cannot stress how much I enjoy having a trans therapist now