the existence of a trans mega has made the main mega much less interesting

it would be funny if someone wrote a script to temp ban all he/hims for 1 day on april fools

ALRIGHT NERDS

Bought a couple fuckin, As Recommended By Hairsnobs (r/curlygirl rec) shampoo and conditioners. Primarily the HE Jojoba + Lavender curl conditioner, and the hemp oil frizz control shampoo. Only my fourth or so shampoo/conditioner combo. Please work.

I dunno what Floridians are gonna do, like, long term. People lived on Florida for millennia, but the particular western way of living and the western mode of builidng/habitation along with climate change means I don't think people can live there like... anymore (unless one if the above changes). Hurricanes aren't going to stop. You'll still need insurance for a mortgage, or maybe they'll just stop offering both in Florida. It's not like there will be a collective effort to rebuild, there wasn't for New Orleans, they're still fucked over.

I'm working on fixing up my life, chat. What do we think:

1. Switch from American to Chinese cigarettes

That's all I've got right now but I think it's a good start

I think hexbear.net is a safe space to be online for transpeople, nobody's perfect, but this place is alright

I did just see the 'grr cheaters' thread from last fortnight, and haha wow, there's some people on this website who need to 'touch grass', (I hear the grass is nice in Siberia)

in lighter news: I realised I've been using neo pronouns ('ey/'em/'er/'im) and its just because i speak with kind of a drawl or something

damn i think i could make a plan to transition to look like this in about 5 years

Everyone always told me I acted like a bottom long before ever realizing I was trans but I never really felt like I actually wanted to do that in bed

and then I started E and good lord has it turned me into something completely different now

thank you all for posting a bunch so i can do upvotes instead of laundry please keep it up i don't want to do laundry yet

I have so many things I want to do

• I'm still grinding away learning frontend coding stuff
• Started learning Japanese finally (almost done learning hiragana)
• I want to write stories again
• I want to make videos again
• I want to see more places, especially more countries

So much to do, maybe I'll even do it

BIG cw: loss, sadness, sui

Howdy beautiful people, I've made a post outlining our planned next steps regarding the site's misogyny problem here, please have a read through it when you get the chance

Idk if I have the heart to tell my work apprentice that I’m not a woman, haha. She sees me as a “strong woman in a male dominated field” and I think I’m ok with letting her think that for now, since she can see herself in that image. But I can’t do it forever. Fortunately I think she’ll be cool with it when I eventually tell her I’m nonbinary.

Hey Trans comrades, got a question about questioning. If it's inappropriate to do this here, lmk asap and I'll delete. Don't wanna intrude in an undesirable way but pretty sure I'm not breaking any rules.

So I've said before that I feel no strong attachment to my gender, but I live daily as a masc-presenting cis-man and am not bothered by it. But the Q-label is always something I've questioned whether I can apply it permanently to myself. Seems like I'm constantly questioning, for years, what kind of gender would really apply to me because just "average Man" doesn't seem like me, but nothing really does either (not even agender). But I'm confortable enough with myself that I think I will never do anything except continue enjoying the questioning itself and learning from that questioning about myself and others. But I comfortably just go with cis-man and feel intrusive in queer spaces as anything but an Ally.

So the final question, is Questioning dialectical and possibly permanent for 1 person or is it dialectical as in it will have to be subsumed in something else during a person's lifetime (assuming you get the chance to complete such a thing)? Any comrades that have experience here want to pitch in? Ready to learn :denguin:

I love epilation. I'm so awful at shaving but epilating is my JAM i'm so goddamn smooth now everywhere and it's a euphoria machine.

"I've never done anything with a boy before... please be gentle..."

I could pull it off. Cmon.

lmao, my dumbass was tapping the comment box in the old thread for like a full minute wondering why it wouldn't work

all these idiots getting raptured didn't even take their clothes and money and stuff with them

they may have got into heaven, but i have their doc martens

hey someone tell me that they're coming over to my place and want to fuck. my room is a mess and i need motivation to clean it. we don't have to fuck and you don't even have to come over actually

EDIT: i come back to hexbear and there are 5 fucking trans people in my notifications saying that they're coming over to play legos today wtf??

@EstraDoll@hexbear.net when are all 17 of us getting together for legos today

I successfully convinced the gender clinic I'm trans enough to go on the bottom surgery wait list 💪

Now it's only another year long wait

you aren't sexy? easy fix

1. put on bralette

2. put flannel over it. don't even button

3. combo with whatever pants you like

congrats girl, you're the sexiest bitch alive

why the fuck does planned parenthood keep telling me that "Estrogen that makes you look like Misato Katsuragi" doesn't fucking exist. I know it does, hand it over!

trying to tell a girl i like her by thinking about her all the fucking time and not saying anything to her

god she's the cutest thing i've ever seen ♥️♥️♥️

yep. the day i was worried about when starting HRT has come. my tits are too large and visible to hide under my shirt anymore

eh. it was high time to stop pretending to be a man all day

Had two medical appointments today and both predictably asked for a list of prescriptions I'm taking. Decided to list E and spiro for both (usually I haven't)... both times the only prescription either nurse asked about was the E/spiro (and for the second one, I just listed off like 6 other prescriptions, perhaps mispronouncing some of them and never was even asked to repeat any of them).

The spiro, I can understand given its also used as a bloodpressure med and a diruetic. How many other uses are the for E in people with a "Sex: M" on their medical chart?

mmmmm gender

god damn... that girl in the mirror is getting some curves

omg trains mega

I'M FREE!!! I'M NEVER DOING A SHIFT WITH THIS GUY AGAIN!!!

He's not even bad, a few of my co-workers were talking shit (although idk what rumors were true or not) but HE DOESN'T STOP SMOKING. My poor asthmatic lungs still feel it, was coughing up a storm 😖

estrogen patch in the shape of a womb tattoo

On one hand, wearing a tank top makes me feel more femme. On the other hand, it reveals arm hair. On the third hand, women have body hair. On the fourth hand, my arm hair is too dark even after it's been shaved recently.

CW: Reddit-tier bit.

On the fifth hand, where are all these hands coming from!

I made a stressy post a few megas ago about my HRT not working very well. I then avoided reading too many of the replies for ages, because thinking about it amongst all the other things going on in my life just felt like too much I guess. I've been trying to rethink that and especially with the anniversary of Al-Aqsa flood, I'm aware how privileged I am to be able to avoid the things that stress me out - there are no content warnings for the horrors you experience when your home is bombed. It shouldn't be their job, but the determination of the Palestinian resistance is spurring me on to keep going as well.

Good news is that the couple of changes I made to my HRT regimen have made a very noticeable difference and I'm very thankful to feel more at home in my own skin than ever before. Been feeling lots of emotions too, more than ever before. It's mostly manifesting as me crying a lot, but it feels good to actually feel my feelings out instead of swallowing them whole into some pit with innumerable other repressed feelings, even if I'm not actively unpacking anything from the pit at the moment. And I already love my partner more and more every day, but it's been a lot more, so that's the best.

Anyway, thanks to everyone who replied to that last post of mine, I'm gonna do a few crossthread replies in the replies to this comment.

Complimented a person at the coming out week march on having cool pins of bands and 80s gay rights symbolism but after that I saw they had a fucking 🇺🇦🇮🇱🇹🇼pinset that I didn’t notice lmfao I hate this fucking place

Being out to even a few friends feels really good.

Highly recommend. Way better than the closet.

Just got my first set of makeup. Eyeliner, Lipstick, and Concealer. I got too light of a concealer, which is a great start, but I think with the proper foundation I can make it work. Eyeliner tho

I love trains even though Amtrak is the limit of my experience. When i ran away from home at 16 I took trains all the way from the east coast to Portland. It took 48 hours on the Empire Builder out of Chicago. A liberating, magical journey for me from hell to heaven.

Everyone on the train was super nice to me, I ate with strangers in the dining car and compared to crossing country on Greyhound it was extremely deluxe.

There is a train on the west coast called the Coast Starlight and it has a magnificent observation car with huge padded chairs that swivel to face outwards, and the walls are almost all clear. If you're lucky you can sit on the ocean side and just chill out to the most breathtaking scenery for hours.

up with trains!

Today is my birthday!

Instead of seeing what today does to me, I'm kinda deciding that it's a good day because it's my birthday and going forward

I have classes all day and idk if anyone knows that it's my birthday but whatever

i can't sit upright for more than a few minutes without feeling like i'm dying

I look into the mirror and I now see a cross between a twink and a butch lesbian so that's exciting

Hot take, its okay to have secrets, or to not tell people things, or not interact with people you don't want to. Obviously I'm not advocating for with-holding information that harms people.

Everything else aside I cant stop thinking about this current wave of discourse about how people are entitled to know everything about you just cause youre dating, and (*comparing it) to the you have to reveal your trans status thing

sorry I'm venting, obviously I'm not even mentioning the misogyny, which ew

Spiro has ruined my ability to sleep through the night. I have to pee every two to three hours, no exceptions.

I've basically accepted that I'm now biphasic and need a siesta to get through the day. 😅

my wife got a callout to go get a corpse at 1am, so I have made some fried rice for when she gets back. shout out to 1am fried rice, it's good shit