Trans athlete ban just hit USA Fencing. Leadership didn't want it, membership didn't want it, but the executive order threatened their NGB status.

Shit sucks. The chairman gave a good shot at defending us at the doge show trial, but idk what could be done here. If they didn't comply, we might end up with a governing body that actually hates trans people, rather than one that tried but failed to include us.

The contents of this mysterious can have been transfered to my stomach

Weekend coming gonna party with some tea, pancakes and idk might put an audiobook on while I won't be at the library I still wish to keep the library vibes going

Bonus pollinator fact: while Earth has had land plants for almost 500 million years, pollinators have only existed in the past 160 million years. For most of the time that there have been plants on the land, there weren't any flowers to be pollinated, because they hadn't evolved yet!

Ahhhh I shaved my legs and they’re already just so prickly! And my hamstrings look like big terrible strawberries because I sat not on the edge of my seat. >:(

You have not experienced Shakespeare until you have read him in the original pig latin

considering trying to raise funds for escaping naziland but also would feel bad for taking from people who "actually need it"

i mean its not that bad here the govt is just kidnapping people and putting them in ~~concentration camps~~ slave labor prisons itll be fine right :3

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Going in to work, my hair a completely tangled mess from swimming the other day and being too depressed this weekend to do literally anything to take care of myself. Also we're short staffed, we've been on this same schedule for like months how do they not have this worked out. But then later we have too many staff and there's a chance management gets pissy about it. Maybe look at the schedule and assign an appropriate amount of hours?? Also my hair being a mess fuckin sucks I hate it. I hate dealing with long hair. Pretty sure I'd crash out if I cut it short atp though.

Lmao one of my besties is fucked up too hell yeah medical buddies

Going on a multi day trip with friends for the first time tbh and very excited. Just haven't known people like that since becoming an adult. I have the next few days until we leave off too and fuck I haven't felt this excited in a while. I can't think of much else to say about it without ruminating on the past and I'm not rly in a ruminating on the past kinda mood.

I think I'm part demigirl part agender if that makes sense

I feel if I ever got into online dating I'd do alright, I can hold a conversation pretty good. When the initial dopamine rush hits I've talked to people for days at a time and not been weird or anything. I do feel I fizzle out though and just slowly stop talking though and I do worry about that if I ever get into a relationship

the power of AI...

learning rust has been such a wild ride, at first it was "oh cool cargo is neat" and "oh I can make games with this" and then it became "wtf is a borrow checker or an elided lifetime" and now I've discovered profiling and benchmarking and wondering why the flamegraph doesn't go deep enough to see why my functions that are being called 100 times in a single frame are taking 5ms each.

Its been years since I've worked with truly hot code, so I'm out of practice, and I've never done it with rust before, so it's a lot of learning and scratching my head about the different tools. Like, it looks like tracy will only measure spans you declare yourself, cargo flamegraph will only go so deep for some reason, maybe there's other ones that can tell me why this stuff is taking so long. And every time I use a different tool I need to recompile all 488 dependencies lol yay

There's a Rust performance book which has been helpful, but it's not intuitive for me to look at a complex function and say "oh yes this will be slow because of X"

Meet someone in my dreams she was real nice but I couldn't see her anymore for reasons that were hard to describe. She gave me a nail polish that in the sun light was light blue but in the moonlight turned light pink. I miss her dearly and I'm starting to think I know what this might mean. that was one hell of an adventure we went on

I still don't know what a lububu is and frankly I think it's funny people just be making up terms and pretending like they real

Having got rid of my worst habit I'm like what the fuck am I supposed to do with my time now how am I gonna complain about not having enough free time in the day and guiltly procrastinate now

Old men love it when I dress like a ghost wearing long grey pants, long sleeve grey shirt, and a giant black sun hat in the triple digit heat index.