y'all ya girl made it and it's like a dream, i'm dating the cute girl from my old gym π
cw: relationship sad and super happy stuff
Just over a year ago my egg cracked. The biggest factors at the time included you beautiful folks, especially EstraDoll who was very vocal about things and I was so envious of her. I watched that TV glow movie and as an older person it really hit me in the gut. There was also this beautiful trans girl at my gym who worked the front desk and seeing her manager treating her totally normal and respectfully made an impact she was the first trans woman I had knowingly interacted with directly and it felt like okay my local community was maybe accepting. I also (respectfully, i'm not a gym creep) saw her doing her lifting routine because she's a trainer there and she was hot! It was just a week or so later that my egg cracked thunderously while listening to a chappell roan song.
I finally realized after a year of being touch starved my wife is never going to love me the way I need so i got on those apps. Well you will not believe this but now 14 or so months since I last saw the gym girl I matched with her on taimi! I assumed she made a mistake until she started flirting! she is ND, a leftist, has multiple tattoos from my favorite video game, loves rust too and she thinks i'm pretty. So maybe she needs new glasses but i'm not going to say anything.
We went to an anarchist bookstore and I showed her Parenti. We took tacos home to her husband and his boyfriend who were also trans and we all hung out and watched movies and there was much snuggling. She was super respectful of my boundaries and asked for consent every time she pushed em. She treats me how I have wanted to be treated my entire life. And she lives down the street! There were a lot of uhaul lesbian jokes because I'm in the polycule now π
Y'all i truly wonder if i just died and this is all a dream. i'm almost 50! I really am so glad I didn't give up.
I really want you all to know that it is never ever ever too late. Don't fucking ever give up on your dreams hang on to what you want relentlessly. Even if it takes decades it's worth it. It's never too late to transition. or find love that fits you. It took many decades and a lot of sadness before I got here but it was worth it. I love you all so much and i'm so grateful for the support from all of you that gave me the courage to be me. Especially you EstraDoll :)
π i really treasure this place so much