RiotDoll

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[–] RiotDoll@hexbear.net 21 points 6 months ago (4 children)

i would need to know what Satan himself is about tbqh but i wouldn't rule this out either.

[–] RiotDoll@hexbear.net 19 points 6 months ago (1 children)

they're gonna bring back feudal society but with the masses bound to corporate entities, arent they?

the fascism of the 21st century is being owned by a corporate lord and living on your work site isnt it?

[–] RiotDoll@hexbear.net 18 points 6 months ago (1 children)

There's a masculine emotional undercurrent to the godfather that i could relate to when i was a teenager in puberty but as a trans woman just feels alien and clownish to me

like the truth of that movie is somewhere in the unresolved male ego and the compensation thereof and i can't vibe on it anymore.

[–] RiotDoll@hexbear.net 60 points 6 months ago* (last edited 6 months ago) (8 children)

it's not for lack of trying, but the far right doesn't deal with wreckers and state interference to the same degree the left does.

the left is also less willing to abuse human psychology to get people under the banner.

we can be like them, but we have to start getting left wing sympathetic people on board with things that traditionally the left finds abhorrent in this country.

A lot of little and big rubicons to cross culturally before we can have organizing like that.

specifically about the use of force and discipline around organizing. people need to accept enough hierarchy to be able to take orders, to be willing to do what it takes to keep your movement and your comrades safe.

acceptance that we've been at war for decades now, but haven't been acting like it. It's time to treat this like war and i think a lot of leftists are still not there in the USA w/r/t accepting that.

[–] RiotDoll@hexbear.net 6 points 6 months ago (4 children)

i've been on hormones for six years in just about 10 days and i gotta say sometimes this isn't true.

I go from "i'm never cumming, keep going though" to "i exploded before my hormone devastated dick could even wake up"

i am talking way too frankly and openly about this

it mostly comes down to random chance it seems

[–] RiotDoll@hexbear.net 1 points 6 months ago

bump amber whataboutism idk if these even work

[–] RiotDoll@hexbear.net 10 points 6 months ago (2 children)

Do you think so? I think what we are internally isn't fully dependent on memory and reference, there is some element of us that just is, for at least as long as we're alive. Behind your eyes and resting within your interior is a spark of something that has existed continuously since you were born, that little "I" of awareness may never change.

It's always you imo. You can go through mk ultra style brainwashing, lose your sense of identity, find yourself under a new name and with new interests, but between who you were and who you are, are enough commonalities that I would dispute the notion we're just electrical signals in wet gooey meat endlessly referencing the past to navigate the present and anticipate the future - but that's me.

[–] RiotDoll@hexbear.net 23 points 6 months ago (8 children)

i think these questions are really uninteresting if you're gonna insist on being purely rational materialist about it, but i think it gets more interesting when you're willing to play with what reality might be a little more. There are religious motifs that repeat in many cultures about the eternal reocurrence. This idea that earth is made and destroyed in countless infinite, repeating cycles.

What if you and I have been going at this for a while?

But if you want the answers science can give right now, probably not

[–] RiotDoll@hexbear.net 1 points 6 months ago
[–] RiotDoll@hexbear.net 11 points 6 months ago

I'm absolutely not returning to twitter to reply guy @ elon, but like that's an absolutely amazing failed attempt at a gacha

Brother you're trying to signal boost and set the tone of discourse. Adrian Ditmann might as well embody how you think normal people see you, and it's sad.

Naked narcissism and manipulation, "actually libs i'm just loving myself" is amazing

I want to somehow say the thing that he sees, and is cut down by it, and is forced to reckon with how awful he is. That's my power fantasy, is being able to do that to shitty people. Make them hurt with surgical precision like an AED trying to jumpstart a heart.

But I know guys like this never really had the capability to get that jolt, and by the time they're whatever the fuck Elon is now, there's no chance.

I feel kinda sappy for just wanting these people to have some kind of eureka/enlightenment moment, but I would have so much more hope for the world if that were possible.

[–] RiotDoll@hexbear.net 6 points 6 months ago

i mean tbqh any of them who are like "yeah this is me i choose to lean in" are doing us a favor.

i'd rather they come to their senses and like, earn their humanity, but i'll settle for them not breeding sure.

 

hey so, i wanna go down a kind of deranged rabbit hole, as i sometimes wanna do, and i need to be able to browse local nyc news through the 1960s, but doing that is gated behind a lot of paywalls as far as i can tell

i really don't have the fucking funds to drop on archive access, so i'm wondering how people get around this?

I happen to live in a different big metro but i can't imagine their archives are either easy to access nor worth the hassle of travelling 2 hours via transit to check out, but i guess i will if i have to.

hoping hexbear has solutions

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thanks

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I hurt my back trying to work out yesterday (son of a bitch)

I can barely move, and i have no ibuprofen or anything here.

I also need food, and because i'm gonna have to walk my ass to the same store either way I'd like to handle both things if possible, but i'm totally broke as shit.

if you can help, it would mean a lot. I have about $3 in total between my card and change, and that's not enough to get anything.

edit: thank you!!!! this community is very kind.

 

thanks to those who helped

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thank you

 

I guess I'm looking for myth that promotes communal ideas, relates to worker alienation, etc.? I think of the book of Acts in the bible, that's somewhere between an example of how christians are supposed to live and a defense of paul before he's executed, right? but incidentally the book has ideas that can be carried forward and developed into a marxist-friendly understanding of how to live, even if it's loaded in stuff a well read marxist would find objectionable, there will be no perfect examples and i find it tiresome to get lost in pedantry about it so spare me!!!

I also wanna write some. Like "hades began to push and proliferate communism because he was horrified by the trauma of the humans coming through his gates and despised our cruel fates" feels like a decent basis for a mythic story idk

look i dont wanna get into the relationship of myth and religion to marxism, not really, i just like writing fake myth and i need an idea of what's out there in order to make something worthy of the concept

 

It was as easy as reformatting a usb stick, changing the boot order and turning off bitlocker, which was on for some reason?? but i havent used linux since, i dunno Mandrake 10? I was a kid, and it has been ages. It changed to mandriva about a year or two after i bought their CD set.

anyway I'm decently competent at computers i guess? i occasionally do stuff in powershell on windows, and the terminal or w/e seems neat. I used to do more coding, a skill i refreshed and picked up during quarantine. I'm mostly familiar with Microsoft's .net stuff though.

i shoved vs code and some stuff on it, but like, what's needed to kind of, well, replace a windows desktop? I gave it a 300gb partition, which is 30% of my available space, so i need to use this thing.

I am mostly getting peeved as shit and annoyed by Microsoft's increasingly aggressive "we gotta force people to upgrade, gotta shove horseshit AI nonsense on our stuff, gotta re-enable ads on the desktop" bullshit. I even paid for windows 10 pro, this isn't a free license, and it's still a nightmare in this way and frankly i'm done. the appeal of starting with a fairly barebones OS (i'm aware i can go much more stripped down with OSes like this, not the point) is intense right now.

but i realize now i genuinely know jack shit about dick outside of microsoft and android environments and i want advice.

The laptop itself is mostly a niche use laptop, but while I'm not an advanced dork in these matters, i probably know enough to leverage it to replace windows if i can know what the strengths of this platform are, what the good software is for software development (is Code gonna be it?), whether Wine is still the emulation software of choice, that stuff.

One thing I'd really like to do is learn what the default install of Mint+Cinnamon is doing, how to go over the different components, how to pick and choose what i want this thing doing. I didn't find the official documentation overly helpful, troubleshooting the install aside, so i wanted to ask here

If i can get there, and get some windows based software running that I need, i'll ditch the windows partition entirely, and i'd like to get there.

 

like, how do you really approach the average american and just like, empathetically convey that they need to raze this fucking barn

i mean especially the groups out there who historically had some level of buy-in to the system and are in denial about their exclusion - like what is the metaphorical eye-piece nada can force onto their eyes to see the basic truth: we gonna have to do something unpleasant to change this sitch

 

Is it because he's always nailing smug weirdo rich fuckbags? Is it the peter falk hard carry? Is it because despite being canonically a cop he does anything but act like a cop?

Is everything downstream of columbo an attempt to erase his legacy as the hound of wealthy sociopaths?

Is Columbo a demigod?

 

i bet vance lets his cheese curdle before it sloughs off in the couch whereas i bet daddy timmy washes thoroughly panting

nah too gross

 

I've had a love of history generally, and I know a bit more than most about the Roman empire, and that's kind of a red flag i guess, but I genuinely think they're one of the worst things to ever happen to the world, much as i find the endless stream of civil wars and coups to be very fun to read, the brutality of their empire wouldn't be surpassed until England somehow went from a backwater to a globe spanning empire and to be quite honest i'm not a fan of them except as a gateway to knowing what some of my ancestors got up to.

Weird Ass Rome Guys are why the American feds are the way they are, it's obvious there is something deeply wrong with how Rome gets portrayed in popular media and stuff that makes this a seemingly wide-spread phenomenon, but honestly what's with the glorification of Rome? is it downstream of American Nationalism? No, that can't be, because Rome Guys go back so far we have popes making fake roman states and tsars and sultans trying to prove their dick is the most Roman. It's hard to miss a lot of Rome Guys are pretty regressive people. Like, you don't ever think something like "Augustus was a role model" unless you've got some twisted bullshit shit going on in your heart.

It makes me uncomfortable to engage with the history sometimes, because Rome Guys are always listening and ready to project their noble fantasy of them and the idiot narratives of Rome's decline as a sickness caused by foreign invaders sure does sound like deeply right wing revisionist history to me, but I've never really thought through the how and why of these guys, i wanted to solicit Hexbear's thoughts.

 

I have a few wilting veggies left, and some carbs (rice mostly) - but I really need to go to the grocery store. I need protein, I need to get cat litter if I can raise enough, too. My snap benefits ended last month. I live in the PNW, and everything is way too fucking expensive. I feel weird asking for $50 when I know it's gonna buy me a few days of food tops, but yeah here I am, hat in hand again.

If you can help, bless and thank you.

Venmo is @KTKatte, I have other cash handles, but you'll need to PM me for them.

Thanks again.

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