When I decided to host the mega again a bit ago, I had no idea what to make it about (of course). So it fell between two topics: a post on the importance of sleep, or a post on just how much I love Fire Emblem: The Sacred Echoes. Well, I felt like the importance of sleep was well-known, and could always wait for the next time I host a mega. I wanted to make sure I hit the Sacred Echoes iron while it's hot, because I've almost finished my play through at this point, and it might genuinely be one of the best games I have ever played.
Sacred Echoes feels so polished, considering it's a fan-made romhack of Sacred Stones, with the goal of bringing the 3DS game, Shadows of Valentia (SoV), to the GBA. Everything about the game aesthetically is very well-done, from the portraits, to the battle sprites, and literally anything else that could be thought of about a game. This includes new character writing, which helps the game in areas where Shadows of Valentia was a little, well, off. That's what I want to go over first, and although I've made a post before, I had only played a little bit of the game. Being at the end, I've noticed more things, and grown to appreciate this game even more than I already did.
Let's start off with the relevant (and interesting) bits: Sacred Echoes actually does a really good job at representing a variety of backgrounds, while also being diverse in a way that doesn't feel like it's simply to have a token character. This game doesn't suffer from the cracker curse, for example. Although most of the characters are white, there is more than one person of color (
) . In terms of LGBTQ+ representation, it's even better. There are many gay/lesbian characters, whose sexuality actually plays a role in the plot and how they interact with others. There's also an aroace character, Lukas, who goes through a whole arc of self-discovery in his support conversations (support Python). It's good stuff, and not things I would normally expect from a Fire Emblem game. I hesitate to bring up the (possibly) only trans character in the game, Jesse. HOLD ON, NO HESITATION AT ALL! I just decided to do more research, and I wasn't just projecting. He is 100% trans, and it's in supports, and it's relevant to his plot and backstory, so it's just like the rest of them, thank goodness, I was worried he was a token. So yeah, support Clive and Jesse. Good stuff, and good luck getting to the end of the game so they can actually meet, one fights for Alm and the other for Celica...
This is Jesse
Here's some dialogue between Clive and Jesse, in the context of a will:
Clive: Only the following will be yours - your mother's wardrobe, her jewelry box, and all corresponding contents.
Jesse: Urgh. Even from halfway in the grave he's trying to tell me what to wear. So yeah, he's still the same tyrant he always was. Hasn't changed a bit.
In terms of character background, it's more diverse than one would think, and it addresses the issue of feudal class. Not all of the characters are nobles, and one of the main characters is a commoner from a random village. The plot regularly deals with the fact that nobles and commoners do not get along. However, it does not try to redeem most nobles. If they aren't proving themselves with their actions, they're probably shitty. Even if they are supposedly "one of the good ones", there's usually some underlying prejudice that comes out when you might not expect it. I love it so much, and I am extremely impressed that the plot doesn't try to redeem nobility as a whole, but rather allows the noble characters within the cast to have character development that feels less like justification and more like re-education.
Pictured is the class traitor Lukas absolutely destroying Fernand
For other details about the story, I'll link my original post. I don't want to drag this on too long, and I mention most of the improvements there. It also includes where to find the patch for the game, and how to play the game for yourself. If you enjoy SRPGs, or are new to the genre, I recommend this game. It has an easy mode for the newbies, and hard mode for those of us who hate ourselves (/s), and a normal mode for everything in-between 
The Echoes cast is amazing, and I love how they interact with each other and the world. Each character stands out, and they feel unique in their relationships with the other characters. Even characters that suffer in SoV, like Faye and the Masked Knight (has a name but it's spoilers), benefit from the Sacred Echoes writing, making them actually enjoyable characters. The villains of the game are also great. I don't want to go too deep, because I don't want to spoil too much, but they aren't just pure evil, and for that I applaud the SoV writers. Berkut is probably the highlight of the game, being the heir to the throne of the empire. I am once again asking you to play the game, because IT IS SO GREAT, and I would not have expected these good of villains to pair with Alm and Celica, as well as their armies.
Pictured is the Masked Knight being a gay little guy. The other guy (Saber) is threatening his life...
Everything about the game design is also amazing. It's GBA Fire Emblem, so the animations are peak and the pixel art is stellar. The maps are improved from the original SoV maps, and they are definetly much better, and much less repetitive. Classes in the game are fun in how they work, each character being able to promote 2-3 times. Mages also work really uniquely and well in this game, with spells costing HP to cast. They learn spells as they level up, rather than by purchasing tomes, which makes for (in my opinion), better gameplay. Sacred Echoes also adds the GBA weapon and magic triangles!
All in all, Sacred Echoes is a great game, and even if you never ending up playing it, you now know of its existence. It stands out as a great romhack, as well as a great Fire Emblem game, AND it has the gay. Can it really get better than that?
If you want my original (and more in-depth) analysis, check out my original post. It's mostly about what Sacred Echoes improves upon the original Shadows of Valentia.
Hope you enjoyed my little nerd-out session, and have a good week everyone! 
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weird, nsfw, anatomy
I don't really know how I feel about sexual anatomy, I guess. I don't have real positive feelings toward either set of anatomy, (and not much of an opinion about alternatives) they both seem kind of weird. No interesting in inserting, no interest in being inserted into, no interest in any sort of oral sex, so I dunno. I also feel weird about the fact that vaginoplasty would bring my body closer into line with cisnormativity? Maybe that's kind of stupid but as I grow to like my body more the concept of most surgical processes (other than orchiectomy) seem weird, Idk. Like I have really clear feelings of wanting the fuckin balls gone, but how do I feel about everything else? I have no idea, a mix of 'weirdly ambivalent' and 'against cisnormativity' about it? I dunno what the right thing for me is anymore. I don't think I feel that much dysphoria about it? That I think all came from people and society and whatever constantly putting my anatomy into the "Male" box by way of terminology and connotation. Really a moment where I thought ofI edited this a lot btw it used to say something else :)
I have this thought at least once a day.
Did u figure it out?
Uh-uh
Edit: Maybe a little bit, I think I'll have to see how I fare in a relationship.
This sums up my feelings surrounding it for me too, mix in intersex & agender and it's the ongoing conundrum.
I should be sleeping.
Intersex & agender more like GAYSEX & GAYGENDER
it is a conundrum tho...
We should be sleeping!!!
I want to solve the lament configuration and have the hooks so I can then bully pinhead when the cenobites show up
but yes we should be sleeping
junk stuff, surgery mention
Yeah idk what to make of those kind of feelings personallyI'm broadly a junk-enjoyer when it comes to other people but think my own stuff is uncomfortable and weird, but thinking about changing it is also uncomfortable and weird
An orchi would probably improve my health and lessen dysphoria for me but even though that's broadly a very safe procedure, any kind of medical appointments are nerve-wracking to me and something about the finality of it feels overwhelming and scary to me
Vaginoplasty is really scary to me despite PPV being something I might really want
I wish gene therapy stuff got to the point where you could just grow the junk you want in a vat and make it all work easy with like no risks of complications
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It is you, finally!!! The PPV enjoyer!!!Goods and services require money
Also I'm a big gay baby and afraid aside from being pretty much "able to maintain being broke but not much more" level broke
I cannot, I have tried.
I would have tried to fit into Gay Baby Jail too, I respect ur drive
No gay baby jail can contain me
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I am gay baby unjailable
Itβs a cool surgery but unfortunately if you donβt live in the states and have insurance with a surgeon in-network itβs an insane amount of money
How did I fucking know the cool surgeries would be gated this way? I bet they all are.
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When you die, do you want a penis or vagina? (or something else, there's other options, null, penis preserving vaginoplasty, etc)Does having a penis bother you? Do you tuck but don't mind otherwise? When you have a partner playing around down there do you feel like somethings wrong or prefer them to play around in the perianal area between? If you woke up with a vagina tomorrow AND had a reversal pill to be used whenever but only one time - would you want it reversed?
I top exclusively, but I still want bottom surgery (I'd just use a strap on). I'd probably be open to, uh, bottoming with a vagina but it'd absolutely be more like power bottoming lol. I'm not the biggest fan of my penis and I tuck like 14 hours a day. There's nothing in me that says "no keep that" besides normal apprehension and anxiety before any big change. It can take a while for funding to be approved or for you to get a surgeon, keep track of how you're feeling wrt down there - you might feel neutral because you've been trying to avoid thinking about it at all!
Not every trans woman wants bottom surgery, it's not a requirement, plenty of women out there have penises and feel fine about having it.
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Oh sorry, I should've said I meant purely in anatomical medical terms when I was talking about it lol. I don't know specifically how you want your own stuff referred to as.Or did you mean in exclusively non-sexual terms? Like, obviously that's a part of genitalia but also it affects your self-image if it's incongruous cause it's part of your body and can be a pain to move out of the way you wear cute clothes without a bulge (if that's a goal for you). And null, just nothing is allowed as an option. Or if you go vaginoplasty route but have no interest in penetrative sex or having a canal, you can get zero depth (faster recovery probably too).
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Do you think a trans woman would have very different opinions on her anatomy compared to me?Fwiw I do also hate "medical" terminology and allosexual framing.
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Oh yeah, fair enough. I use it cause it's usually neutral and it's an agreed-upon (by others of course) framework that I can use at work with my colleagues- and it spills over into personal conversations. I'm sorry if it bothered you! I'll keep that in mind for the future.Sorry, I don't keep track of everyone's identities either - I saw she/her and made a bumbling dumb assumption you were a binary trans woman. There are plenty of trans women or enby transfemme leaning people who feel completely fine and at ease without bottom surgery. How you feel about it, I dunno. If it's causing you pain or dysphoria, I'd say sign up. As you research surgeons or get in line for funding, monitor how you feel about it.
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Okay so if it's not causing me pain or dysphoria, is it fine? To be real it sortaspoiler
Yeah re-name it whatever you want! My ex who did bottom surgery while we were together called her stuff "her clitty" before bottom surgery lol. For myself (and I can only speak for myself), the name isn't the part causing me bottom dysphoria it's the actual meat that's causing me bottom dysphoria - so while I want bottom surgery, I have never renamed it or used a different term like plenty of trans femme types have.If the only pain or dysphoria you feel with it is when people refer to it in the "male biology" box and it literally doesn't bother you otherwise - yeah, like I said there's no requirement you have to get bottom surgery. In the 90s and before, bottom surgery was like the crowning achievement of transition and the moment when you "completed" transition. Thankfully that attitude is more and more jettisoned.
I'd say if you feel really on the fence about it, see about getting on a list but keep track of how you feel - cause waiting lists can be quite long depending on where you are. You're allowed to change your mind at any moment before surgery (cause under GA you can't lol), including the minutes before surgery. But if literally the only thing causing you discomfort it when OTHER people refer to it in the wrong terminology or they have the wrong connotations about it, I wouldn't go through surgery just for that.
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Okay, I see. Uh I guess a thing is, while I don't get dysphoria from it really (I stare at myself in the mirror after I shower A LOT) I don't know if I feel that positive about it. Idk both sexual anatomy types seem kind of bad for sex if you don't like to stick thing in thing? Idk, it would be cool to get euphoria from havin' a fat [removed] but I don't feel that good about any of it?Wish people didnt still say this
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Well then imagine yourself waking up tomorrow by some strange event having whatever you've thought about being there instead - null, zero depth, vaginoplasty etc. You got prescribed the pill that will turn everything back painlessly from just one night - would you take the pill? This is a hypothetical to determine how you might feel AFTER all the steps and changes and pain of surgery, cause that's gonna be the rest of your life - and bottom surgery is gonna be a distant week long memory in 10 years. All that'd gonna be there is the post surgery stuff.Bottom surgery can have other benefits that could interest you if you're ace, it can mean no more tucking, it can make things look how you might want, etc. It's not just a surgery for sex there are plenty of other benefits.
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UmAny vulvaplasty, I am instantly distressed that some omnipotent force cisnormified me. I don't need the canal for any sex reasons, so that's not up to much, but then... why is the zero-depth option still a vulva though? Where's my flat anatomy that isn't one of two? Where's the one that doesn't have a weird gender connotation at?
Not tucking sounds handy but why not just get orchi for that? At that point even undersized underwear would do, right?
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What would you ideally like that isn't null or vulva? Don't forget orchie but no other op is a completely valid choice.spoiler
Uh I dunno, something that's flat enough for miniskirts but doesn't carry weird connotations I guess. Maybe if you could get just a clit? just a really small version of what I have now sans balls, even. Idk. I'm also not that fussed on the "erection" part, so nix that too if we can.spoiler
I bet it could be done. They do (apologies for the term, I don't know a different one) partial penectomy for cis men when indicated (cancer). I would search around - causee gender affirming partial penectomy should ABSOLUTELY be possible.Okay, so, you go to sleep tonight and wake up - you look down, it's what you were picturing, smaller, more clit-like, no vulva, optionally orchie. All recovery is done, it's working as intended, there's no concerns. Next to your bed is a pill that can turn everything back painlessly. Go through your daily routine in your mind, shower, put on a cute skirt this time without any concerns about bulge, you go to work or school and its not like anyone knows, (this next part is optional cause you mentioned you like sex sometimes) maybe you meet someone and they go back to your place that night and actually they kind of like what you have and you use it however you mean to and it's good and fun.
How do you feel about this scenario, when you imagine this? Do you think you'd want to take the pill to return to what you had before the day after? We're doing this hypothetical to put the active choice in KEEPING what you have, in reality you have to make a choice to change of course but it sounded like you felt a little stuck. We're also doing the hypothetical to eliminate all the anxieties about surgery, those are valid but they might be getting in your way of making a clear-headed decision. If you imagine the scenario and you actually kind of dig it and would flush the pill - I'd say go for it and find a surgeon to get you started on that path. If you think it'd be neat to try maybe for a while but you'd ultimately reverse it, then don't bother with surgery.
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"Penectomy" is forever imbued with a comedy meaning for meSo we figured it out for me, together: Gender Affirming Surgery that gives you a really lil transfemme clit
Unironically this rocks lmao. "Micropeen surgery" lol
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Perfect! Yeah, I'd start researching surgeons and hospitals and stuff! You can absolutely get an orchie with no issues too before (be nice if they can just combine it all in one day but whatever). The clinic/hospital you get an orchie in or a gender clinic or support group should hopefully get you a head start on figuring out how to actually get that all squared away.spoiler
Pretty sure I'd seen people talk about keeping the ability to enjoy sex. So went and found a thread on reddit where someone talked about their own experience:
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Source: https://www.reddit.com/r/agender/comments/11gs6z3/comment/kwb6ecc/ :::
I gotta fucking say though "nullos" kinda sounds like a slur, wow.
Cause society is boring and doesn't talk about cool stuff.
Yeah... Not sure why you'd use an 'o' instead of an 'i' when it's null**i**fiction.
FR FR
we need more talking about cool stuff.
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if that happened my reaction would be to destroy the pill so I couldnβt accidentally swallow it in a freak accident lol
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I know that I do not want a penis, and it feels like I should have a vagina in my case? Like, I cannot wait to get this thing off of me.spoiler
I see, I dunno if I have much positive feelings toward any sexual anatomy I guess...Tap for spoiler
If you want a vagina I'd guess would be an important sign. Personally thought I'd much prefer having one to what I was given long before egg crack (but null also seemed more appealing than my default).Surgery scary though. And expensive. So, all things considered idk when or if I'd want any genital-related surgeries. Not like I particularly hate what I have, nor does anyone else see it anyways.
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How should you know if you want one though?spoiler
Idk? You just kinda do something I guess? Wish it was possible to just try out different options. For me, I'm more sure that I don't want what I have than I am that I necessarily want something in specific. Also, I say I don't really care that much about what I have, but then again I bother tucking all the time, so I'm not really sure how much I should believe myself.I realized like 6 years ago, that I liked the idea of being flat down there and not only for sex reasons.... oddly because of wearing cycling shorts. The padding sorta had the same effect as tucking. But given I thought I was technically cis (and didn't really know anything about surgeries), I did not consider it might be an actual option (and I had thought an orchi would only be a realistic option if I had some medical need for removal well before that... I just blamed dislike of libido but also dismissed non-surgical alternatives).
Are you worried you might just be considering it because you feel its expected? Personally, I don't think my opinion on the idea has really changed all that much; I just realize things are somewhat realistic options (at least eventually).
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I'm shocked by how much I can relate to that actually uh wowspoiler
Oh you find this one to be a good post? :3spoiler
i mean, yeah tbh, it's very honest and i appreciate that, gave me a lot of "me too"s, i'll be thinking about it for a while...spoiler
See this is why I LOVE weird sexposting!!! Look at all the cool things! Hope the thought has productive resultsthank you!