autism discussion
Was inspired by all the 'tism talk in the mega to retake the tests on Embrace Autism again. I took them a few years ago, scored in the autistic range, got further confirmation by a psychiatrist who agreed that I probably am autistic, and basically forgot about it. Honestly, out of all my various neurodivergencies, I feel like my autism is the one that causes me the least pain and distress. I despise my OCD and my ADHD, but my autism? My autism is cool.
Anyways, I scored 34 on AQ, 154 on RAADS-R, and to my surprise, 102 on CAT-Q??? I guess I mask a lot less than I thought I did. Maybe that's why I struggle a lot socially, lol. I definitely don't relate to the common autistic experience of following a social "script", though I do try my best to be nice. My experience with trying to socialize with people in-person (especially in school settings) is that I will have a nice, friendly first meeting, and then those people will just... not be friends with me, and become friends with other people instead. I wonder if I just subconsciously radiate those autistic vibes, lol.