wearing leggings

having to tuck

it's friday rice

Excellent haul at the thrift store today. I am still too self-conscious to try out clothes, so I got lucky: everything fits well! Got a couple plain color t-shirts with varying necklines, a yellow shrug, some flannels, and this really cute Torrid purple plaid blousey midi dress that fits perfectly.

feeling weird about sexuality tbh

My wife is judging how much moisturizer I use

Who keeps the cisgender down?

While we are beeping around?

WE DOOOOOOOOOO, WE DOOOOOOOOO

up with trans

At the dentist with my dad since he's having a root canal today, he just went in now I have to exist in public for a while

I feel so disconnected from my femininity and have for like a month. I've stopped shaving and doing my nails. I've stopped wearing my femme clothes. I can't stand doing voice anymore. I'm always in siege mode. I don't have the energy to self actualize anymore. Any time I'm under stress, I'll just revert to being a guy. I'm so depressed.

Along with personal misery, there's the collective terrorism that we're all going through. I would have to drop my career and find a new one. I don't know how I'll get the medical care I need while trans. I can't travel freely.

I'm thinking of just quitting. I want to throw out all my girl shit and just be done with it. I've spent my whole life with a hole in my heart, so I'm used to it. I can better care for my loved ones that way.

The only ONLY reason I'm not doing any of that is being I can't stand the thought of letting the fascists beat me without even lifting a finger. So I just keep going, fueled by spite. That'll probably just get me black bagged in an airport. A lot of good that will do. :::

my tits have been looking a lot bigger recently even if i haven't really feel them grow. is quitting drinking helping with that? idk, maybe

Men telling me I’m too emotional, overreacting, antisocial, and alienating the working class? Maybe I am a woman after all!

Have I mentioned that I'm like really gay yet today? 🦊🦊

Anyways, it's been a while, bur have a good night, mega.

If I was trans I just wouldn’t let people discriminate against me duh

Watching a YouTube video on the game Kowloon's Gate

YouTuber says there's a character named Anita who is a crossdresser, but all the characters in the game use she/her pronouns to refer to her, and they say she's the most beautiful woman in the city.

Huh, wonder if there is a word that fits better than crossdresser. Someone should invent that.

Good News, soldiers. We are winning.

Might buy the accursed Amazon skirt since no online retailer has decent ones.

The News Mega is winning

Taking the Wariopill, gonna be waa-ing, gonna be eating more raw garlic, gonna be throwing around people like ragdolls, gonna be making my friends help me make games. Once I get this going gonna be taking over the manosphere

Edit: im feeling a bit better now

Incredibly cute plant, what is it?

went to a nice injections tutorial thingy with my gf, it seems way less scary now. she even did her first one! can't wait to start them (DIY) cause its gonna save me a bunch of money over getting scammed in the GP/pharmacy and i'm sick of doing gel every day.

awwwwwrrruf :3

My boobs are still barely boobs but they’re bigger than they’ve ever appeared and I can’t look away 🥹

Why is my how I see my own face so volatile compared to how I see everyone else's?

Like, to my perception other people look mostly the same all the time, but angle and lighting completely changes how happy I am with my own face. Makes me worried I'm actually abnormally ugly and when I'm not seeing that it's just cope

Had a dream where I was using my femme voice for the first time.

I kept fucking up and dropping it. Just like real life lol

My ability to do anything gender or otherwise is tanking hard these days all I want to do is not exist for a while

Preparing for my first real date today (as well as potentially a lot of other firsts) please send me your energy/support, as I am super excited but also really nervous.

My wife keeps doing my injections in a way that makes my leg hurt

americans are henceforth banned from the netherlands if they have a channel centred around urbanism. find another country

Kissing would probably be so cool if I could figure out how to do it

Anyways if we pass the first big threshold (I believe it was around 600-800 last year) I will officially declare the comeback of trans and we will have 5k comment Pride Month megas

Email subject line: BWW is hiring.

Big Womanly Woman wants me in the kitchen

Bit idea: masochist who takes estrogen for the booba pain

I'm finally closer to being a transwoman y'all

Done:

• programmer socks
• learned Rust
• puppy collar
• actually transitioned (not as important, really)
• installed arch a bunch of times
• and, finally, a "real" mechanical keyboard, as of yesterday (ok its a prebuilt but its a hotswap TKL so I think it counts)

Todo:

• ancient thinkpad
• probdbly some other stuff I'm forgetting

gonna try to do self care shit I've been putting off through sheer willpower today

i was complaining last week that my tits haven't been hurting much and i was scared they stopped growing

OUCH OOF OWIE i guess they listened

One of my old nursing profs invited me to a research project and told her advisor I'm a "dear colleague" awwww 🥹