It is kind of a powerful thought the idea I'm ending my genetic line by choosing celibacy ngl. It's like they say breeding ran in my family until it ran into me

tummy hurty

I fucking love ramen yum yum

I love fish seafood taste, dried seaweed is such a great umami booster and I love the taste!

so our friend called the police on us, that was fun

luckily we scored a nat 20 perception check and then two nat 20 charisma checks and everything is fine (and yes we are fine too it was very uncalled for)

we are once again solidified in our lesbianism, men is too headache

Maybe this is a lib/naive take, but I love when people wear a rainbow wristband or pin or whatever. It's a nice assurance that they (probably) won't be weird.

Fantastic. I managed to get 5 whole hours of sleep today instead of the usual 4.

wtf are you supposed to wear for summer?

I got the gender affirming nightgown (it's just a really sexy nightgown). Even sleeping makes me feel happy now.

does estrogen make beans tastier? kinda feels like it

Worst feeling of dysphoria i've felt in a year or something today, feel like shit

My wife refuses to kill the plant that attacked me because she hates me

the zip on my favourite skirt broke

Okay chat, I finally got a chance to talk with my friend about helping me. Her big concerns were safety and legality, she wants to take me to Planned parenthood for an appointment so I talk to the doctor about everything (worried I might have some condition that makes me ineligible, tried explaining but its nbd). My only concern is I don't know how medical charts or anything works. I've let basically all my doctors talk to my parents about stuff, is this on a per doctor basis or is there one list of all my shit they can see? Or if I just don't give planned parenthood permission to share, then that's kept between me and them? And they won't tell my other doctors?

Also I still want to get diy so I have a supply and don't have to take an AA, anything I should say to her about that? Only thing I think she'd be worried about is legality and I know at least some vendors do not ship in the most professional packaging.

Also also rough idea of how much is this going to cost out of pocket?

I keep thinking about Gale in breaking bad brewing the perfect coffee to take out the bitter taste with this advanced chemistry equipment and knowledge

The bitterness of coffee is kind of the point. Im not a "I want coffee flavored coffee damn it" style person, but I do like black coffee and I do like milk sugar lattes. When I drink a black coffee, the bitterness, the tannins, its all part of the point. Gale couldnt handle even the little bit of roughness in coffee, he was not going to last in the drug business. And he second Gus put him in finally, he fucking got merced so hard so quickly and he didnt even do anything wrong. Also, it was weird to see him in the wire when I saw it later lol

awwwooooooo

im slowly approaching how i want to look. ive been losing weight and while im not super excited about gaining muscle, i prefer it to the fat. my hair also looks great, i have naturally curly textured hair and ive been cutting it in a short shag (i think? not sure about haircut names. it looks like rei ayanami's hair but not blue)

although i would like to be slimmer overall it is unfortunately not possible as far as i know. i have naturally broad shoulders and chest bones so no amount of weight loss will make me look less triangular.

I'm surprised I haven't seen any wild takes from conservatives or pro-Russia nazbols about Iran's (nuanced) trans rights, during this conflict.

Was bored and playing around with a gameboy camera filter and after messing with lighting and posing for awhile I accidentally took my most amazing picture ever. I look like I'm in a manga and I'm like one panel away from murdering someone in cold blood. I feel like my true soul has been captured.

Reject modernity. Embrace the gameboy camera.

i miss being able to swim

People at work are finally starting to talk to me a bit. At first everyone kinda ignored me. Also (and don't ruin this for me) women complaining to me about men being creepy/pushy always feels nice, idk it feels kinda dumb now that I'm typing it out but that kind of thing has always felt like girl talk to me. Obviously sucks that men be that way,

Idk at what point I'm allowed to start feeling awkward but asked friend for help and have been left on read for 3 hours. Feels like an easy thing to help me with out of all transition stuff idk...

edit: well, I guess not a hard no, she said it depends and she wants to talk next time we hang out. Supposedly Saturday. Guessing she won't be thrilled about diy (didn't explain much for opsec). fml etc etc

Ahhhh i hate canceled plans its so upsetting when the schedule is disrupted ahhhhhh!!!! Even when its me disrupting the schedule its really upsetting ahhhhh!!!!

went to the thrift store and made a new friend, anyone have a good name for a llama?

starting hrt technically. not the fun gender kind tho it's just supposed to give me periods which i just didnt get before. which was kinda gender affirming ngl but im kinda sick of randomly bleeding and rly dark body hair