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TW for suicide, and drugs.

Spare me the usual replies, please. I’ve heard them all.

I’m going to drop Creamsicle off at a friend’s house today.

“Yay!”

Then I’m probably going to acquire fentanyl somehow, and forget that I ever existed.

I’ve considered writing a letter to my friend, the one I’m always talking about. Creamsicle was originally supposed to be a birthday present for them, but they didn’t want him. I’d love for him to go live with them, but I don’t want them to be sad. I think I just want them to forget I ever existed. I know they probably won’t be too sad but I don’t know. I wish I could say goodbye.

Every single fucking day sucks. I am in the same exact hole today, on March 22nd, 2024, as I was on March 22nd, 2023, and on March 22nd, 2022. The only difference is I just keep getting slightly worse every year. Each winter hurts more than the last. More people stop talking to me and I smile less and life becomes increasingly more stupid and meaningless.

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[–] Dirt_Owl@hexbear.net 44 points 6 months ago* (last edited 6 months ago) (1 children)

No

Every day you survive this hellhole is a day you say "fuck you" to the monstrous system that's trying to kill you.

Fuck them. You deserve to live.

[–] Sphere@hexbear.net 41 points 6 months ago* (last edited 6 months ago) (1 children)

I wish you wouldn't. But I also don't know how to make your life better, and it feels like our whole system is built not to care. I just hate to see you give up instead of finding your way to some degree of happiness (in spite of how arduous a journey that's likely to be).

[–] SorosFootSoldier@hexbear.net 33 points 6 months ago

^^ this, I seriously do not want to see you go. I don't know what else to say.

[–] macerated_baby_presidents@hexbear.net 35 points 6 months ago* (last edited 6 months ago) (1 children)

Hopefully this isn't the usual response. Did you call back the detox place you were talking to in January? If you've gotten stuff tidied up for suicide you are certainly prepared for inpatient. Take that plan/surrender energy and give them a call before business hours end today. The option to kill yourself will always be there, so don't be in a rush.

If you were in the Midwest I'd offer my couch + kitchen for a few weeks. Props to you for getting through the winters.

[–] allthetimesivedied@hexbear.net 5 points 6 months ago (1 children)

I used to cut myself, before I started doing meth. It won’t make the world any less cruel.

[–] macerated_baby_presidents@hexbear.net 21 points 6 months ago* (last edited 6 months ago)

I used to cut myself when I was a teenager, didn't see a way out. All my mental health problems went away once I cut off family, even though I was struggling to make rent and stay fed. I had no idea that's what I needed until I did it. It's end of capitalism shit, right? It was easier for me to imagine suicide than a better life. Maybe you need rehab "vacation" and hormones, maybe you need a $70 plane ticket to anywhere. It can only be confirmed by trying shit out. If you're thinking about suicide, turn your life upside down first and see if it sticks. Everything is on the table! The worst that can happen is you kill yourself on some beach in the Bahamas instead of here. Really fuck up some tourists' day. But I hope you're able to find a safe harbor from the world so we can fight for a better one.

[–] HelltakerHomosexual@hexbear.net 31 points 6 months ago (1 children)

are you making this post because you want us to tell you not to kill yourself?

do you really want to die, or do you want things to stop?

dm me comrade

[–] allthetimesivedied@hexbear.net 5 points 6 months ago (1 children)

There isn’t really anything anyone here can say. There isn’t really anything anyone can say. Almost anyone.

[–] HelltakerHomosexual@hexbear.net 15 points 6 months ago (1 children)

perhaps talk to that almost anyone, i'd hate to lose another good comrade

[–] allthetimesivedied@hexbear.net 6 points 6 months ago

It really does not help.

[–] RNAi@hexbear.net 27 points 6 months ago

Don't do it.

[–] ButtBidet@hexbear.net 22 points 6 months ago

Comrade, DM me

[–] Infamousblt@hexbear.net 18 points 6 months ago

Hey comrade, it sounds like you're really struggling today. I don't really know how to help, but I hope you pull through this. You are deserving of happiness and you are deserving of life.

[–] oscardejarjayes@hexbear.net 16 points 6 months ago (2 children)

I've been debating what to say for a while. This is a sensitive topic, and I'm never entirely sure I've said the "right thing".

A number of people I've known have taken their own life, I've tried (and failed), and my SO has been put in the psych ward several times. Despite (or maybe because) of this, I'm not all that opposed to suicide. I'm not going to tell you not to, I'm not a huge fan of hearing that.

My go-to response is usually to firstly tell them that their method of suicide isn't very good (an extremely common occurrence), follow that up with advice on what to do instead (doing it like usual is definitely a bad idea here), and then ask that they sleep on it (Rash decisions are bad. I don't want to be the thing that pushed someone into attempting, just someone that stopped that attempt from being unpleasant).

So firstly, don't try to die by overdose. It's the most common kind of suicide attempt, and also the least successful. I understand that's how you died those previous times, but it really doesn't take much for it to go wrong. Secondly, maybe check out SaSu? You can set it so you only see the "recovery" section, a section which has helped quite a few people. No worries about institutionalization or police or being talked down to, just suicidal people talking to other suicidal people about not being suicidal. Thirdly, sleep on it (though I doubt it'll help).

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[–] KrupskayaPraxis@lemmygrad.ml 15 points 6 months ago

It may seem hard now, and it is, but I'll promise you'll find a way out. I felt the same way, and I feel much better now. You'll look back at this moment in the future as a temporay moment. All you have to do is stay alive.

[–] allthetimesivedied@hexbear.net 14 points 6 months ago

So I failed at getting fetty. Got ripped off and I lost my fucking lighter.

[–] 1stTime4MeInMCU@mander.xyz 13 points 6 months ago (1 children)

If you live in the US call 988 for mental health crisis support.

All I’ll say is it can get better, never believe it can’t happen. Anecdotally ketamine therapy helped me a lot. DM me if you just want someone to talk to but I probably can’t reply quickly

[–] JohnBrownNote@hexbear.net 30 points 6 months ago (1 children)

If you live in the US call 988 for mental health crisis support.

i've never heard anyone who had a good experience. only people where it did nothing, sicced the pigs on them, or saddled them with an involuntary hospital bill they couldn't afford

[–] allthetimesivedied@hexbear.net 13 points 6 months ago

Yeah it’s annoying when people reply with that.

[–] RonPaulyShore@hexbear.net 12 points 6 months ago
[–] JohannaChittarra@hexbear.net 11 points 6 months ago

Hey comrade, I don’t really know what to say, but I really appreciate your presence here on our little website. I hope you stay around.

[–] duderium@hexbear.net 10 points 6 months ago
[–] JohnBrownNote@hexbear.net 9 points 6 months ago

i'm sorry your life is like this

[–] Ocommie63@lemmygrad.ml 9 points 6 months ago

Please dont

[–] wtypstanaccount04@hexbear.net 9 points 6 months ago

It's not worth it, and we would miss you. Creamsicle would miss you too.

[–] Lurkerino@hexbear.net 6 points 6 months ago

I was suicidal too some years ago, maternal abuse and fathers suicide, while having to still pass my studies.

I managed to finish my studies and then I broke down, I spent two years just smoking weed and playing videogames while thinking about death.

After taking mushrooms my depressiom improved and I was able to have enough energy to continue my life, 3 years later I feel much better and my life is a lot better too.

I hated when people told me to not do it, but now im not so sure, things really have gotten better for me in ways I would have never thought of.

I guess make sure you have looked at every option before doing anything.

[–] Dirt_Owl@hexbear.net 3 points 6 months ago (1 children)

Hey I was just wondering if sending you some money would help you at least materially? Is there some way I can send you some without it doxxing me?

[–] allthetimesivedied@hexbear.net 4 points 6 months ago (1 children)

CashApp lets you use whatever name you want. So does Venmo.

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