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Computer girls and guys and enbies, I call ye!
I'm building my first computer. All the components are in. I have no idea how to make sure it's cool (as in temp lol). I've never built one
intersex stuff and hormone issues
iβm intersex and have various health conditions and it all combines to create a situation where i must be on T, and i can only be on very limited amounts of E. iβm still trying to find the right E levels that wonβt cause me problems.
this is kinda annoying and i wish i could change it but there is nothing i can really do without having a surgery i canβt afford and donβt really want.
is there anything better than typing a journal entry into the text box and then deleting it before you publish it to the world
People are a lot nicer to me now than before I transitioned, which is nice, but it feels like a lot of them also assume I'm dumb af, which never happened when I was a "guy".
I kinda expected it from men, but what's caught me off guard is that a lot of women do it too.
parents /derogatory
My mom walked into my room this morning and told me she was going to star throwing things out of the house and that included my room. I told her that itβs my room and my stuff and I have a right to decide what to keep. She basically responded with βlol no youβre too mentally ill for that.β
Chat, what the fuck was that?
waffling about orchitectomy stuff
I haven't made the call yet but Oh man, I'm probably gonna have to inform my dad that I'll be down for a couple days or weeks or whatever due to orchi, holy shit. What am I even gonna do about that?
Further: my endo is cool, but is the surgeon or whoever gonna be super fucking weird about it? Is every staff member I interact with gonna be super fucking weird about it?
For a split second I had hoped that being more chill about my anatomy now would help, but talking to basically-randoms, or like, your dad, about your body still seems really unfun.
love to wake up in the middle of the night and see that ive been lying on my tablet again 
it's not MY fault that the fanfics are just too good to put down 
The Thing sustaining me rn is that soon i'll be living on an Anarchist commune in another country. 120% tired, 200% done w/ this shithole.
I've noticed something lately
I used to feel fairly content just doing things on my own, before I really came out as trans to anyone else. Due to a number of factors, I don't feel as content as last year for instance. But despite that, it does seem like I'm laughing more often, which is nice β€οΈ
I've also made a small IRL trans friend group, and it's fun hanging out with them
I'm still on waiting lists for gender care, and it seems like it'll still be a while, but being able to be a girl in front of more people has made me very happy
I'm planning on coming out to my mom in a few weeks' time, and I really hope it goes well!
I left 
There's always next time 
At least you made it there and went in!
Discovery: tank tops are rad (especially with room for sideboob 
or if you wear a sports bra that's fun too) because I sweat in them way less.
In a t-shirt, even a men's 4XL one, my underarms become a fuckin swamp, I drip sweat even in moderate summer temperatures. I bought a bunch of tanktops a while back though, both men's and women's, from medium to XL (silly sizes) and it's far less likely I'll sweat to death. I am now in Tanktop and Sweatpants Gang; I am a small shirt big pants queer now!
okay, my face doesn't look any more femme but it's clearly a lot softer looking. My roommate wasn't lying about me looking different
I am genderfluid, it's very liberating to admit that. I don't really wanna stick with one way of presenting myself or having one identity. I am pretty happy as a guy and as a girl and also in mysterious, unknowable forms.
some sad feelings around motherhood, rambling
ive been doing trauma release exercises and meditation recently and theyve brought up so much shit that ive been repressing. like i think i finally unlocked lesbian yearning and holy fuck i can barely handle it!! 
ive never felt this full body loneliness before, its almost incapacitating. and ive also started to grieve the fact that iβll never be a mother unless a lot of shit (physical health, finances, mental health) gets magically better over the next few years and it just sucks. it sucks a lot lol
Weird how searching up top surgery info can make your tits weigh ten more pounds.
Yesterday was my first full day since starting HRT Friday. And it was mostly amazing! Chronic pain symptoms are way down. It was 90% the tension of not being myself. Being in high alert trauma mode for literally decades.
trauma triggers
But my trauma did get triggered yesterday. Went to a beach to hang out with some friends in a more conservative neighborhood. A lot of macho energy and drinking. I may have felt safer boy moding, but then again, I boymoded for decades in these kinds of situations and still had trauma triggered.
Felt the neck tension return when I walked to the bathroom with my girlfriend. It's still pretty tight but I'm feeling safe now and going to do my morning Qi Gong at the lake... back in my liberal little bubble.
Slept really well (not the norm but hopefully the new norm). I think I was letting go of a lot of things in my sleep.
And I was able to cuddle with my gf all night without the male sex drive driving me nuts in the morning!
Feeling like I'm micro dosing Molly.
Oh... And made some new trans friends yesterday too!
Life is good today. Thanks again comrades for holding space here :)
Just wanted to post out into the void that being trans fucking rocks actually. 
Hey trans thread, I just helped a gal amend her birth certificate. Being trans is alright, but helping other trans people? That's the real good shit.
Working a culturally-specific job is like the best move I've ever made for my own emotional wellbeing.
Wearing one of my biggest t-shirts and it's long enough that it's almost dress-like now that I'm smaller. Feels good.
struggle session talk
Sorry for lashing out at everyone, yesterday.
Sometimes it just feels like I am only viewed as this like...charity case that has to be guided or condescended to and everything I say is wrong.
I was still kind of sensitive about the whole thing from a few days ago, so when I was trying to have a genuine conversation with Ash, but Smiley just comes along with what felt to me a very pithy and hostile and unproductive comment just targeting me and basically (in my eyes) calling me a transphobe it really hurt my feelings.
I'm grateful one of the mods eventually did remove the comment, but at the time it just felt like anything I said was under such intense scrutiny, but anything anyone said to me was fair game.
Like I would be chastised for calling someone delusion (which I shouldn't have done), but people had free reign to call me or liken me to fascists or phrenologists and transphobes.
Which to me is really hurtful.
And seeing all the upbears those comments get just kind of makes or made me feel like I was just surrounded by people who hate me, when this server should feel welcoming.
The anonymous nature of those upbears just kind of increasing my paranoia and making me lash out at everyone.
The only person I knew I was upset with (and who seemed to hate me) was Smiley so I made a post saying she should block me because I didn't want her interacting with me.
The way I did this wasn't very calm or mature, even when I tried to be more level-headed about it after my first comment was removed.
It probably could have/should have been a DM.
I kind of wish it had been because I really did not appreciate her claiming I purposefully misgendered her because I have a habit of using singular they.
She knew I was already sensitive about her previous comments that, in my mind, called me a transphobe. So her making such an accusation felt very purposeful and like she was further trying to upset me, and worse, manipulative like she was trying to get everyone to hate me.
That could or could not be the case, but that's how it felt to me at the time, for what it's worth I am sorry if it genuinely upset you that I used they.
I'm not really trying to dig up the drama, I just want to explain my side of things.
elon's estranged daughter is cool as fuck.
she sounds like she posts here
Itβs good to have peace of mind when doing injections now knowing it is actually working 
My therapist said to reach out to other queer people. She said Hexbear didn't count as homework, but was still very worthwhile. I even asked here how to do my homework, because she told me I should check. How are y'all doing?
Damn I'm really just walking out the house like not trying and people talking about how cute my outfits are. Sorry I can't help it I'm just really cute ππ―
More sappy posting about being gendered correctly on this funny bear website.
Someone referred to me as her the other day and 
literally can't stop thinking about it and how happy it makes me feel.
In our Soviet Union people aren't born; organisms are born. Here, people are made β tractor drivers, mechanics, academicians, scientists, etc.
drinking rum, watching two people on youtube sparring with katanas using longsword techniques and kinda wishing i had a gf
drinking always does this to me, need to stop goddamnit 
my therapist asked me who I marry in stardew valley and told me who they go for
I feel like we know so much more about each other now
trans people will be 23 and walk up to you and say "I'm 31, actually" and pull out their ID that makes them older than they really are. No girl, you're not a day over 25, stop lying, you do NOT look remotely that old
Incorporating leggings into my wardrobe has prompted me to buy a little bag for all my pockets stuff! I'm having this moment of realization that I move more freely when I don't have pockets full of STUFF
spoiler I'm having a whole day today, a lot going on internally.navel gazing, cw discussion of sex related stuff
I guess maybe it's being NB (again) or else I've had some kind of internal seeing-the-light moment, but I have pleasant, weird and new perceptions of myself and my expressions and a lot of things I do.
If you asked me six months ago what I thought of being touched below the belt, I would probably have said "don't even fucking think about it". Now though, I can honestly say that I have had sex without any real dysphoria, which in itself feels weird. I've been a dysphoric little bitch my entire life, and now it's just... fine? I did not feel the need to instantly pull up the covers or whatever afterword. I'm not convinced that my junk bothers me in sexual terms. Cool?? Could I have spent the last decade not suffering if I'd just forsaken binary genders?????? Did it really have that much of an impact on my self-perception and everything??? I guess so...
To be fair, part of this is all that excruciating trauma processing I did a couple megathreads ago =) My mind and its stream of consciousness will still float away and think irrelevant things if I let it, but having put in all the work to actively rein that shit in means I can think clearly about whatever is currently going on, ask myself what I want, what I'm gonna do. I feel ridiculously clear headed now; whereas before I would barely speak, I have a lot less trouble expressing what I want. Maybe I will be ready to do something funny and kinky at some point?
TL;DR 
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