It’s weird because I’ve known I was trans for several years now yet I still feel like I’m discovering things about myself. Like I just had the realization that I generally try to spend as little time in front of the mirror as possible (outside of the times I’m trying to do some fashion stuff) and when I do look in the mirror I very often feel like I’m looking at a stranger. I don’t dislike how this stranger looks nor do I have any visceral reaction towards them but they aren’t exactly me. I feel like I generally don’t think much about this sense of depersonalization because I unconsciously spend a lot of energy trying to bury it, hence why I just realized that I’m not a fan of mirrors. There seems to be this engine that runs in my brain that constantly works to shield me from feeling acutely dysphoric, which on the one hand I appreciate but on the other hand it probably has burned a ton of calories on essentially nothing productive haha.

NEW MEGA HYPE!!!

Can someone please help me deal with some of my ? This is kind of embarrassing to post so please try not to judge me. I'm trying to do better

I am incredibly jealous of women doing those like "tik tok" dances with all the fancy footwork. I wish I was cute, skilled, and having a good time :sicko-wistful: I keep watching this same video and it's just mesmerizing. I want to be her.

I shall like to remind all my trans comrades (actually, all lemmy comrades, but whatever) that deletion does not actually delete a comment, I just pulled quickquestion's comment to aru. You must edit your comment to actually make it unreadable.

Edit: I looked into it a bit, and it seems that after 30 days, a comment is supposed to be permanently deleted (overwritten). Although, after checking with my own comments, some of them weren't overwritten, so for important things overwrite/edit them yourself.

hair on your ass

hair down to your ass

I should actually do something to feel better instead of wallowing and stewing

Anyone got any fem haircut suggestions? Besides bangs, I don't think I'd look good with bangs

I've been growing my hair out for like 3 years now so it is long but messy and unstyled

Also anyone know of as way to cut down on frizz?

Anyone have experience with getting a US passport? I have my birth certificate and valid ID, but the names don't match. I had a court-ordered name change in another state, but don't remember exactly when or where and I don't know how to look it up to order a copy. It was well over a decade ago. My birth state makes it very easy to amend birth certificates, but the processing time is lengthy and I haven't needed to do it yet. It's on my list, but can I get a passport without waiting on that?

prescription was filled. literally the only thing i have to do now is go to the pharmacy to pick it up tomorrow

when you earn the title of "best wingwoman in the world" for hooking your friend up with what might legitimately be the hottest trans polycule in the state and can't write an appropriate brag post about the entire saga because it would both be too horny and would run the risk of doxxing some or all of us

always hate this sterotype that trans girls always want to be a barbie doll! i don't! i always thought of myself as more of a polly pocket type of girl

I don't know who it is that is always talking about using an IPL for hair but I wanna say that it really works. I've been using one on my legs, on your recommendation, for the last month or so and yeah there is a serious decline in regrowth. So thanks for the recommendation whoever you are.

Good to know I can still draw near perfect eyeliner wings after not doing it for weeks. That always makes me feel good

So I'm out at work, but still not out to my family. Anyone else do this?

Hello all!!! 👋👋👋 I hope you are having and will have a good week!!! Much love 🥰🥰🥰 and down with cis!!! 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️✊✊✊🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️

I see the beautiful nonbinary goth lesbian. I say, she can fix me!

ah fuck, it's lesbian visibility week? they know, they can see me

I really like painting my nails, as i recently discovered, but buying new colours is so expensive, and if one makes a mistake, it is a kinda expensive mistake, also I don't need a full bottle, just to try things. I guess the ideal solution would be founding a nailpolish club, or something, where people could pool ressources. That is however way above my current comfort level, also I don't have the social connections to start one really.

In slightly related news, I have been unable to go to a meeting of local lgbtq+ ppl, due to their online presence being closed off. Their website hasn't been update since before I moved here. Their alternative is an instagramm page, I don't have an insta account, and I also don't want one to just look at a jpeg, but I might just have to do it anyway. They change location every meeting, which seems like good opsec in a rightwing place, but is deeply frustrating to me, in the moment.

I was also at my hairdresser today, and she actually complimented my haircare. Considering the state it was in when I first visited (very bad, I was completly lost), it's something I am very happy about. I love going there, because it is very relaxing, and I can chat about haircare, and learn new things each time.

the mega's kind zoomin this week huh

i don't feel like a girl

i will one day though

Saw myself in our full length mirror last night after showering and I didn't totally hate what I saw.

Defo inspiration to start exercising.

I didn't think I'd be interested in dating for at least a couple of years after starting transitioning since I was so uncomfortable with my body.

But now I actucally like my face and most of my body quite a bit, and I'd kinda like to try some stuff now that I can actually be myself in a relationship. On the other hand, there's still parts of my body, like my upper chest, I get pretty dyshoric about so maybe it's better to wait until I'm more comfortable. Idk, it's a confusing feeling, I want to experience things but another part of me wants to hold back at the same time.